Love is a fabulous feeling. I carry a lot of love inside and with me throughout the day. It brings me joy to share it, especially if a friend is having a hard time. I have a fabulous friend I stop by to see once a week just to give her a hug.
Everyone loves differently. They feel and display it uniquely in their own way. This can be confusing when you’re in a relationship. I know what my love looks like, but it takes time to see the other persons. Going headstrong into life, patience is a difficult discipline for me to acquire. It can be done, but it’s not very graceful. I have found it to be rather painful.
I will be the first to admit, I am spoiled. The people of my past have stepped out of my way and allowed me to move forward down my path.
Eventually, God will place a person in your life that doesn’t move. They stand strong in the middle of your path and just smile. It’s highly annoying for me and I can have a fit, but that person doesn’t mind. They will allow the fit and wait for it to subside. You see, they have acquired the skill of waiting and are a master at waiting patiently. It’s highly annoying.
The benefits outweigh the negatives. The only negative is on me and my flesh. You will always know this person is waiting on the path. They are not far out of reach and are always there if possible. That is comforting for me in a relationship, just knowing they are there. Just like disciplining a child, they will wait for the fit to be over, put you in a timeout, or even threaten to spank you. At my age, I don’t think about being spanked, but I hear it can be done.
My life may be beautiful, but if God thinks I’m too spoiled, He will fix it. It takes a strong man to stand up to me and not budge. I will wait a long time for that kind of man. One who loves me enough not to give me what I want right now all the time. Nothing worthwhile in my life has ever come easy. I don’t need easy, just possible. In the meantime, I will continue to have my fits and get those out of my system. My love and having that man to love is worth the wait.