One of the most memorable lessons I’ve learned is, don’t let your happiness depend on something you may lose. When my ex-husbands company moved without him, we lost our home to foreclosure and the ship began to sink.
Money has always been important to him. Growing up without having much, caused him to be highly motivated to have more. There is a lot of time and money that goes into having more. I grew up without a lot of material things, but Mama gave all the love she had. She told me she loved me all the time and gave the best hugs. I was loved.
I missed a lot of moments back then. My son’s life was Polo outfits, private schools and video games. I didn’t see much of my daughter. She had a nanny her first year and I wasn’t sure what to do with her after that. My son’s life involved my drinking and my daughter’s did not. I got sober before I found out I was pregnant. God took my desire to drink completely away and He was watching as I lost everything else. Just like my drinking, it was for my best.
I was so busy taking care of all our stuff, and being who people thought I should be, I missed a lot of moments. My kids heard, ‘Not now’, a lot and they always saw me rushing around or working. I had an office in that house that had a pocket door to my daughters hallway. It stayed shut. I could hear her playing but that was about it.
God watched as I lost everything that we worked had so hard for, so I thought. He was there the day I walked out of my marriage too. God had allowed us to accumulate all that stuff, but when the means to pay for it was taken away, there went the stuff. This happened to a lot of people when the economic crisis set in.
I pray that you have let go of your stuff. My ex still has most of the stuff, but it’s not being enjoyed. He has spent all these years trying to get back what was taken from him. God says He will restore all that and He has in my life. You would have thought it would have been the material things, but I live a very simple life today and love it.
It’s the moments God restored. I get to be with my daughter everyday with very little stress. We live a beautiful life and have everything we need. All we need is God and one another. He wants us to depend on Him for every little thing and today, I do. The only way to lose everything now is to stop following God and that, I’m not willing to lose.
Barbara is a writer and loves being a Mom to her 15 year old daughter. It’s a dream come true for her to be a Let It Go Coach and help others enjoy their lives. She hosts Workshops, does one on one Coaching and is working on her first book. You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com