Walking through the house this morning making my way to the Keurig, it had a different feel and smell. My daughter and I purchased a Christmas tree last night, and it was standing in the corner filling the room with its presence.It has no lights or ornaments to help it stand out but it’s hard not to notice it. I realize God’s presence the same as that tree.
It’s amazing how much my life has changed in one year. The most obvious is living in a different house than before, but change is not always obvious. For me change is a lot of small decisions followed by some type of action. It’s like doing the ‘next right thing’ continuously.
When I left my 25 year marriage, a lot of stuff stayed behind. My ex is moving and had everything he didn’t want to take piled up inside the garage. He told me I could go through and take what I wanted. I stood there and looked at all that stuff we collected over the years and smiled.
It was interesting to see what he found worthy of the new house and what he left behind. He will store most of it because of their worth, but I thought I had to have my red clock. It resembles a giant pocket watch hanging from a chain attached to a wrought iron arm. I took it home.
Spending most of my morning trying to find a good spot to hang this unique clock from my past. What was I thinking?
I tried two locations, and neither of them worked. The first place I tried revealed rather quickly that it wouldn’t take the weight of it, so I stopped before messing up the wall too badly. The second try produced a forced hanging of stabilizing the hole with an anchor before inserting the screw. I was determined to hang this clock! It hung, and I didn’t like it. Walking around looking at it from different angles and trying to make it fit in my life. Sound familiar?
I took it down. Now there are two large holes in the wall. They can be filled and touched up with paint. I’d rather have two holes than something hanging around that doesn’t fit or bring me joy. I will find someone to give it to this season.
When there is change, sometimes it can leave what feels like holes inside us. God can and always has filled the holes.
Barbara is a writer, Entrepreneur and Mom to her 16-year-old daughter. She loves dipping cookies in her coffee in the morning and will only eat cake with real buttercream icing. When she started this Blog in 2014 Letitgocoach was the name given. She enjoys helping people Let Go of what is holding them back from having a beautiful life. Her life today is an example of Letting Go and Letting God. You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com