I slept through the night. That in itself is a miracle.
I woke up thinking about a Blog I wrote lastnight before bed entitled, How to Fly. I wanted to pull it up, and delete it because I wasn’t happy with it. Since when is this Blog about me? I just write what’s on my heart.
It’s Tuesday, but I don’t have Chemo. Week two begins of the three week break. There is no feeling of dread this morning. No dark cloud following me around. It’s a new day full of possibilities, and more healing.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned about life it’s this. There is a reason, and a season for everything. God doesn’t reveal the reason for the season while you’re in it, but as you stay the path, it becomes more clear.
A season can last a long time.
I have a friend that has been battling Breast Cancer a lot longer than me. To look at her circumstances, it seems to be getting worse, and not better. Let me tell you that God gives His biggest battles, to His toughest soldiers.
When her battle is over, it’s going to be obvious that God did for her what she couldn’t do for herself.
I have another friend that is in a season of quiet. She doesn’t feel she is being used by God.
This woman has been used by God her entire life. She introduced me to a church that reconnected me to God, and she was my daughter’s Nanny for a short time. She brought joy and laughter to our lives, and years later, she still does.
When you are in a season of quiet, that stinkin’ Devil will walk in and make you doubt every aspect of your life.
I have been in a season of quiet for a long time. Going through Chemo has made it challenging to write. The toxins alone mess with your mind and body, and give ample opportunity for the devil to kick you while you’re down.
I started questioning my mission, and pondered maybe I should stop writing. Am I reaching people, or helping them in any way? I have to believe that God will use this Blog to encourage others. Even if I just reach one.
That same friend that isn’t feeling used by God, took time to encourage me yesterday.
She said she’s encouraged by my Blog.
She has said in the past that she always gets something out of it, and sometimes it feels like it’s written specifically for her. Well my friend if you are reading this, let me assure you that God is still using you. This writer that was doubting her ability to keep writing, has just written another Blog.