This Blog post is for anyone suffering from an addiction.
To overcome the addiction, you have to want to. Your ‘want to‘ has to become bigger than it. God created us to be overcomers, and because He has overcome the world, there is nothing we cannot overcome through Him.
I give credit to AA for opening up the relationship I have with God today. The first 3 steps are all about God, and this scares some people away, but He took the desire to drink away from me. I will happily spend the rest of my life serving Him, because I get to enjoy life sober.
There will always be an excuse to drink. Someone asked me once, “How do you know you’re an alcoholic?” Because normal people can have one drink, and stop. My one drink was the entire bottle of wine. To numb the feelings that were bubbling up inside of me. When I stopped drinking, I had to feel those feelings. With sobriety there is no hiding.
When you stop drinking, you meet all the parts of yourself you’ve been at war with. Face them.
It’s no big secret how to stay sober. Go to meetings. That means I have to shower, get in my truck, and drive, and then walk into a room full of people who are there for the same reason as me. You can sit in front of a computer screen in an online meeting. I did that. I also drank wine while watching what was being said in the online meeting. You can’t isolate and stay sober.
My fear of waking up hungover, and not remembering what I said and did is real. I will go to any length to enjoy this life God has given me and remain sober. My ‘want to’ overcomes any fear.