Giving Me Practice

I went shopping yesterday and left my phone at home. It was intentional, just to check myself and make sure it didn’t bother me, and it didn’t.

I spent years addicted to my phone.

The day I deactivated my Facebook accounts was the day they congratulated me for spending six years with them. They sent a notification, and I was mortified. Six years, and what did I have to show for it?

Thank you for all of your kind comments on my Blog posts recently. They absolutely terrify me.

It takes time for me to respond, because I still overthink the response. I don’t have the WordPress app on my phone, so I don’t receive immediate notification. I let notifications run my life for years.

The past couple of weeks, I’ve been sharing things with you that took a long time to admit. It may look like Blogging tips, but for me it was painful lessons.

It’s not even about me, it’s about the lessons, and being used by God to prevent someone else from going through the same heartache. It’s by God’s grace that I’m able to sit here and share. Palms sweaty and hands shaking along the keyboard.

I don’t realize all the activity on my Blog without the app. Two or three times a day, I open my laptop, logon to this site, and see that you have visited.

I read the Blogs in my Reader, and love on others. It’s natural to give love, and leave comments on what you write, but I stare at the screen in awe when that same love and kindness is returned.

Sometimes I don’t know what to say, so I just ‘like’ the comment, and come back later to respond. I don’t know how people do it that have 100’s of comments a day. I would be so overwhelmed.

I enjoy living a calm, quiet life, but to live that way, I turn off all notifications, and my phone is usually in another room of the house. I’m not quite ready to tell you exactly how bad it got with 6 social media accounts giving me a feeling of importance.

Wow. That slipped out.

I don’t run my Blog in the normal way, because if I did, it would begin to run me. Thank you for your love and kindness, and taking time to comment.

It’s becoming less terrifying with every response, and you are giving me practice.

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Letitgocoach

Life becomes really beautiful after 50. Everything before then is practice. xx #alcoholic #breastcancersurvivor #singlemom #lifeoverfifty

14 thoughts on “Giving Me Practice”

  1. I have found that love through blogging. The camaraderie that emanates is incredible and at times, one can feel overwhelmed. How can virtual strangers be friends? But we are and we support each other with kindness and generosity of heart. xo

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    1. I have felt that as well dahling. I am blessed to have found you and yes, we are friends!!! The title you chose for your Blogsite is so form fitting. You are ‘Authentic’, which allows me ample space to be authentic with you. xxx

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  2. Don’t worry about responding to comments love. It’s fine. I do get what you mean though about social media. I have WhatsApp and I always used to panic every time my phone buzzed. I tend to stay well clear of social media because of the stress but even then I have so many notifications from everything else. Thanks for sharing with me as I get how hard it is 🙂

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    1. Thank you lovely. xx Yes, I have no notifications turned on for anything. It gets very still and quiet, which is more difficult to embrace than activity. My phone is a paperweight. Lol

      There is a feeling of ease checking for notifications instead of them finding me first. It kinda kills the whole purpose of being notified, but I like it. xxx

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  3. I agree with you. I could not respond to hundreds of comments. Two to three times a day is enough. Like I have to return to post to comment. At the moment I am stuck with phone not liking it at all. Peace and quiet nothing like it. Mobile phone good just as a phone no more.

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