In four more days, she will be 18. My darling daughter.
I’ve always thought of her as older, and wise beyond her years. It was 5 years ago that we ventured out on our own. What a brave little girl, to leave everything she knew, for the unknown. I hope she always leaves her comfort zone.
Do we give up a chunk of our lives for our children?
My daughter and I have shared our lives. She has watched her Mama grow up, just as I have watched her. She has big wings, but they are still developing. I believe this year has been the year of finding myself, so I am ready when she flies. I don’t worry about her, so she shouldn’t worry about me. When she sees me stepping off the path she says,
Is this what you gave up a 25 year marriage for?
We take care of one another, and this song makes us cry. My darling daughter, you are my life, but you have also given me yours. May we fly in sequence, but always find our way home.
This was one of my favorite Memes. I wanted that kind of love.
My life doesn’t revolve around Memes anymore. I don’t know if you can find this kind of love with a person. I have found this type of love with God. The creator of the ocean knows.
Open your heart
It’s time that we start again
Open your heart
It’s time that we start again
If you wanna know
How far my love can go
Just how deep, just how wide
If you wanna see
How much you mean to me
Look at my hands, look at my side
If you could count the times I’d say you are forgiven
It’s more than the drops in the ocean
My daughter and I drove to San Antonio this morning, but as we were getting ready, she played this song. It reminded me of the kind of love I’ve always wanted in a relationship.
Looking up the video to share with you, I noticed it was posted 4 years ago. That was right after I left my 25 year marriage, and vowed to myself this crazy kinda love. “I don’t want good, and I don’t want good enough.” I’m not gonna settle for anything less than crazy. (The good kind)
My daughter showed me this song, and it fascinates me.
When we are in pain, it’s natural to cry out to Jesus to show Himself. This guy is serious about it. My hope is that He did.
This is the only clear sounding video I could find, but it doesn’t have lyrics in it. The bass is so good, it scares our kitten out of the den as soon as he hears it playing. Enjoy!
I’ve got a God-shaped hole, that’s infected
And I’m petrified of being alone
It’s pathetic, I know
And I toss and I turn in my bed
It’s just like I lost my head (lost my head)
And if I believe you,
Would that make it stop if I told you I need you?
Is that what you want?
And I’m broken and bleeding, and begging for help.
And I’m asking you, Jesus: show yourself.
My daughter grew up watching Hannah Montana. The show had a cool concept, and it was obvious that God had filled this girl with oober talent. Playing Hannah Montana had set her up for life! Obviously, it wasn’t the life she desired, cuz Hannah dropped more than her wig. She grew up, and made choices that will haunt her, as long as we have Internet.
When my daughter told me Liam Hemsworth, and Miley had reunited, I was happy, but concerned. Miley had blazed a trail, and didn’t seem to be the same person Liam originally fell in love with. The lyrics say, “I would have never believed you, if three years ago you told me I’d be here writing this song.” Here’s Miley, with her true voice, and “Malibu.”
Sitting at my desk enjoying the day, in pajamas, and coffee within reach. The radio is quietly playing in the background. This entire time it felt like it was Sunday, instead of Saturday!
Listening to the music in the background, this song was playing. It’s one of the songs I played to praise, and worship God with while standing on The pier. That was where I re-connected with God, after leaving a 25 year, unhealthy marriage. A couple of weeks ago the pier was mentioned in this Feel the Music, so these songs still resonate with me.
In this song, “Words”, by Hawk Nelson, it feels like he is shouting out to God! That is how I felt then, and sometimes now. Plus, as writers, we have a thing about ‘Words’. Enjoy!
Let my words be life
Let my words be truth
I don’t wanna say a word
Unless it points the world back to You
Have a beautiful day, Beautiful Souls. Much love to you! ❤
We’ve been talking about Satan this week, and we are NOT done, but today is God’s day. Isn’t that what we are taught to believe? Sunday is God’s day. Right?
God is moving so fast in my life, I feel behind! Isn’t that where we’re supposed to be? Behind Him? He has many plans, but He waited until I was ready before He revealed them. How do I know they are His plans? Because they are my wildest dreams! (Another Blog)
We serve a God that wants to grant us our dreams, and He is a wild God! “Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.” (Ephesians 3:20 amp)
I have so many things I want to share with you right now, it’s overwhelming! It’s the good kind of overwhelm tho. My heart is racing, and I can’t type fast enough! God has always taken excellent care of me, and that is how this Blog started. To show you!
But now, I’m gonna ‘tell’ you some things.
Will you ‘like’ all of it? Probably not. I am not bashing Christians. I am one! You’ve been sitting in a pew, being spoon fed long enough! (They just closed the screen)
Is God quiet in your life? I have said that many times, “God? You are so quiet!” Nope. I was the one being quiet. He gave me a really big mouth, and the gift of writing. Wow! You go God! I’m finally ready for Him to use it. Heck! He gave me a year of rest!
To the naked eye, it looked like I had Breast Cancer, but He used Cancer to give me rest without an option. You know why? Because God can’t use a worn out warrior!
This song just came on the radio, and you need to take a listen. I stopped writing, and started jumping up and down singing along at the top of my lungs! My arms were swinging through the air, similar of a boxer. I’ll haveta ask my daughter to take a video, because it surprised me how much I looked like a fighter in that moment! God gave me a year off, so He would have His mighty warrior back! Right Olivia?
Do you know why people get offended? Oh! I know…I know! (This is where my hand shoots up it the air, hoping God will pick me to give the answer, like we did in school) I have studied, and learned this lesson because I used to be offended so easily. “Get over yourself Barb!” Oh, you mean it’s not about me? Thank you God!
What I write about is the lesson learned. Satan’s greatest weapon among BELIEVERS is offense. Did you get that? Lemme say it this way. “The truth hurts!” God sends people to teach us, so, to all those people still reading my Blog hoping to see if your name is mentioned? Thanks for the lesson!
BOOM! Did you hear that?!? That was some offended followers leaving, and the door slamming shut behind them! I bet they stalk my Facebook page too, just to see how I’m doing without them in my life. (Me- Waving bye. That’s another Blog)
I bought a book recently from a fellow Blogger. I haven’t read it yet, but I will. Hell, I couldn’t get past the first page! He said, “Raluca Adelina Hanu, this is not for you.”
God must have really big plans for Cristian Mihaibecause that’s the poor guys name!
Can you imagine, if he’s waiting for someone at a coffee shop? He is just there, minding his own bizness. This person walks in, sees him, and yells, “HEY CRISTIAN!!!!” Gasp! I imagine everyone sitting there would stop and look in horror!
Now Cristian, thank you for letting me use your name today. If we ever meet in person, I have a huge hug with your name on it. I know….I know….I try not to write names, but it was all God. Oh….That sounded like I was blaming God. Woops! (That’s another Blog)
A friend sent me the above Meme yesterday. That is the kinda people I want in my life. ‘Spiritual Badasses.’ This friend is considered in today’s society a “Christian Lady.” I refer to her as ‘Potty Mouth”, and “Queen B”, (for Badass) because she cusses more than I do, and she ain’t scared of shit! She stared death straight in the face and said, “Get under my feet Satan, cuz God ain’t done with me yet!!!”
She is older than me, (forgive me for saying that), but with her extra years, she is filled with wisdom. I don’t ask for her ‘opinion’. I ask her to lay some ‘wisdom’ on me! Thank you God for Connie Moore! Oooops! I used her name! Well, one of her favorite sayings is, “Just do it, and ask forgiveness later”, but I won’t need to do that with her.
My God is yelling my name from the mountain tops! “HEY CHRISTIAN! I have some plans that are gonna blow your mind, but I need you to sit with me everyday!!!!”“For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the Lord, ‘plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster to give you a future and a hope.” (Jeremiah 29:11)
If Sunday is the only day you sit with God, that is between you and Him. My God wants to use me everyday, and that is scary. Have you been around me before?
I must be preachin’ good, because I just saw my very first snake in the yard. He was right in my path, and I almost stepped right on him!!! Isn’t Satan a snake in the Bible? If your life is quiet, it’s because Satan ain’t worried. Yea, I wrote it in bold because I haven’t been a threat to him in a long time, but guess what Satan? Be worried.
I know I have been sharing a lot of Christian music recently, but that is what I have been listening to. Allow me to show you how God is trending in my life.
Music was not a part of my life for a season. Four years ago, I had this phone I absolutely loved, and it had free music on it. You may recall, it’s the phone I used to play my praise and worship music on the pier in Praise Him Anyway.
My phone carrier stopped offering the free music feature. I just never took time to reload something else on my phone. Hey Satan! Dat You? When my daughter received this stereo for Christmas, music was back in our home. God wants us to hear, and feel the music.
Psalm 95:1 says, “Come, let us sing for joy to the LORD; let us shout aloud to the Rock of our salvation.”
Well…This week, I have been singing so much, and so loudly, my throat is sore.
It all started when my daughter hooked up that sub-woofer. It was more than just hearing it like before. The bass made my chair vibrate as I was writing!
This is song number three this week, but every time it comes on the radio, I jump up and start singing along with it. I’ve danced so much, my dog tries to dance along with me. If my 12-year-old dog gets excited, my hope is God does too. I’m Coming Out!
Through this song, God is saying, “If you could only let your guard down. You could learn to trust me somehow. I swear, that I won’t let you go.” God Uses Scraps.
I do trust Him. He used my Cancer Journey to show me I could trust Him with my life. Literally! If you look at my posts from this week, you can see my guard coming down. He gave me the name Letitgocoach, and I want to live up to that name. He hasn’t let me go yet, so why should He start now? I’m finally to the point of not letting Him go either.
A friend sent me the above Meme yesterday. That is the kinda people I want in my life. ‘Spiritual Badasses.’ This friend is considered in today’s society a “Christian Lady.” I refer to her as ‘Potty Mouth”, and “Queen B”, (for Badass) because she cusses more than I do, and she ain’t scared of shit! She stared death straight in the face and said, “Get under my feet Satan, cuz God ain’t done with me yet!!!”