Stealing My Joy

I had a revelation just now in the kitchen. Maybe my kitchen is the place to be because I seem to find revelation there daily. Yesterday, God showed me what my book is going to look like, just standing at the kitchen sink. Now it is clear.

I have had a page pulled up since early this morning to write this ‘Stealing My Joy’ series, and I had to just place it in drafts. God has shown me two things in the kitchen today, and one of those is…I can steal my own Joy. The other thing was, He has given me a beautiful life and that is what I can encourage others with. People want a pretty life!

blog2Every time I walked by, or sat down at my laptop, I saw the page waiting for me to type. Even though there is something right outside my door that is annoying, I don’t have to let it steal my Joy. I choose not to for now and will write about it once I have a conclusion. I want a happy ending first.

I have an extremely patient man in my life. He always lets me work. This week, I became engrossed in what I do and we lost touch.  Choosing to spend several hours with him today is just what I needed.  He brings pure goodness into my world and my life would not be as pretty without him.

My daughter is playing music and twirling like a ballerina in the den as I walk by. She asks, “Dance with me Mama?” I give her a look because she knows, I don’t dance. As I walk by her, she grabs me and gives me a hug instead. I held her tightly for a moment and just felt that moment. Our life is in constant motion, but we have to stop for these moments. These are precious moments that produce all that’s pretty.

 

blackandwhiteBarbara is a writer and loves being a Mom to her 15 year old daughter. It’s a dream come true for her to be a Let It Go Coach and help others enjoy their lives. She hosts Workshops, does one on one Coaching and is working on her first book.  You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Greater Good

I sit here this morning looking out at a lake. It was not here a few months ago, but it’s coming back. When I first came here, the area was filled with Bluebonnets. There was no water, but the area knew it was supposed to be full.

blueheronIt’s mornings like this that remind me of Stork. We don’t realize what we miss until it’s no longer there. This massive Blue Heron gave me comfort the first year of my legal separation. Knowing I was on the path God had for me, even though I was headed toward a divorce. I miss seeing Stork.

I saw a post this morning that reminded me of a lesson I am continuously learning. I am learning to love myself enough to do what’s good for me. Walking away from a 25 year marriage was one of the hardest thing I ever did. Mustering the courage to walk away from what was not good for me.

I think every relationship starts off good. It’s new and exciting when someone walks into your life that brings more happiness. Make sure it continues to bring you joy. The first sign of sadness should be a red flag because the heart knows.  Just like this once dry land knows it’s a lake.

My daughter used to ask me why I looked sad. If I was with someone that loved me, my face should be smiling. If my heart hurts it will show on my face. The look of sadness means an empty heart, smile means happy and a laugh means overflowing.  Don’t wait for a person to see what’s on your face and question whats in your heart. Walk away.

 

blackandwhiteBarbara is a writer and loves being a Mom to her 15 year old daughter. It’s a dream come true for her to be a Let It Go Coach and help others enjoy their lives. She hosts Workshops, does one on one Coaching and is working on her first book.  You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com

Break Under Pressure

Today has been one of those day’s where God started talking to me as soon as my feet hit the floor. I purposefully walked through my day and noticed so many things that have been here, but today I didn’t take them for granted.

knobs1I love these knobs. When we came to look at this house God had chosen for us, I saw these cabinet doors. They fill up the mudroom and are more than I need, but I was excited. They didn’t have any knobs on them, the surface was smooth. I would finally get to use my knobs!

I bought them years ago, and they have moved along with me. The man who owned the house, apologized for not having the door pulls in place. I told him if he would drill the holes, I would take care of it. They bring me joy every time I walk by and see them on the cabinets.

Today, I grabbed one to pull open the door, in search of a cookbook. I spotted the one I wanted on the top shelf, and had to reach and stand on my tip toes to grab it. Still having the knob in my hand, I placed a little pressure down on it, to raise myself up. Then it snapped.

It came off the door, and broke into three pieces laying in my hand. It really hurt my feelings! The first thought that came to mind was how to fix it. I didn’t have any super glue, but could pick some up later on. The back mount had broken off and broken in half so this wasn’t going to be a seamless fix. knobs2

Then, of course, I started fussing at myself for not being gentle with the old, porcelain knobs. When I got to the point of discouragement, God reminded me that I had two extras. There were more knobs than cabinets and I had two somewhere, but where. Here went the search.

They came to this house in a grey, plastic grocery bag, so how hard could it be. I don’t store things so these cabinets God blessed me with are maybe half full. I looked in every cabinet, drawer and even the pantry. Anywhere in the nearby vicinity I thought they would be.

I couldn’t find that little bag anywhere, so now my feelings were really hurt. Walking over to a kitchen cabinet to take one more look inside, I grabbed the knob. In my hand was the red knob. This cabinet and the one beside it had the two extra knobs. Right in front of my face!

Having high expectations for myself always has me prompting others to be the best they can be. I am not the easiest person to love at close range. Being easier on myself will spill over to others. Let up on the pressure before the break. Fixing people is more difficult than knobs, so I will cherish the ones in front of my face.

 

The Heart Knows

Men enjoy telling me, I think too much. When something is on my mind, it typically comes from my heart because that is where my spirit dwells. A man should be worried if I wasn’t thinking a lot. Then my heart would not be full.

heartGod placed a man in my life that is borderline genius. He used such big words when he texted me, that I had to look them up to communicate. That was an interesting time in my life. My daughter thought that was too much work, but I wanted to know every word.

I learned a lot from that man and his words. You won’t see me use big words in my writing, because I want it to be an easy read. If you had to stop and look up words, this wouldn’t be as enjoyable. I want to reach everybody and teach from the heart, not mind.

The irony of this is, that man found my mind very interesting. I was terrified to talk with him in fear of looking stupid, but he always wanted to know how I think. I could never explain it to him, but I hope that today, that man is led more by his heart than his mind.

Mama always said, “Go with your gut.” If I don’t have peace about something, I have learned not to do it. I can plan my day, but if I get to something on my list and lose my peace, I pause and pray. God has saved me many a time by taking away my peace right before I walked out the door.

Follow your heart but take your brain with you. My heart feeds my mind, so whatever is on my heart will be on my mind. I can have thoughts that are not led by my spirit, and that should make you worry. Instead of wondering what I have on my mind, look inside my heart. That is where every thought starts and where everyone should want to be.

 

blackandwhiteBarbara is a writer and loves being a Mom to her 15 year old daughter. It’s a dream come true for her to be a Let It Go Coach and helping others enjoy their lives. She hosts Workshops, does one on one Coaching and is working on her first book.  You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com

 

 

 

What Am I

I am a private person. A private person with a passion for helping others. That doesn’t make much sense, but today God yanked me out of my box. I sat here taking the simplest of steps and watching as God does what only He can do.

blogI am a child of the one true King. He leads and guides my steps as long as I let Him. It’s easy to step in the way and try to run the show myself, but that normally doesn’t end well! Today, He grabbed me and started running. It was all I could do to keep up and it was mind blowing!

Two years ago I went through a process of shedding the old me and welcoming the new. Sorting through my past and keeping only what was beneficial. Afterwards, I was offered the opportunity to become a Coach of Letting Go. That was two years ago and we’re just now getting started.

The process took time and getting certified did too. A year ago I created this Blog spot and named it Letitgocoach. Finding the name started by using the words Let It Go, but none of those were available so I mashed it all together with Coach and it took. I had become a Letitgocoach by name.blog1

Then came the Facebook page. A year ago again, I created a community for people to be encouraged. It has grown over time and is just starting to really get noticed. Someone from that page contacted me. He asked me what prompted me to start it, so I told him, ‘God did. I’m an encourager and I’m a Coach.’ He had no clue by looking at the page that I am a Coach.

I went into the settings of the page and pulled the three words together that said, ‘Let It Go’. and added ‘Coach’. I changed the category from ‘Community’ to ‘Coach’. When I clicked ‘save changes’, it reloaded and my page transformed into saying ‘Letitgocoach‘, and that I am a ‘Coach’.

It changed right before my eyes. There are other Coaches out there that do similar work as me, but only one Letitgocoach. When we step into God’s will, He will show us what we need to become everything He has planned. I guess He saved that one word for me.

 

blackandwhiteBarbara is a writer and loves being a Mom to her 15 year old daughter. It’s a dream come true for her to be a Let It Go Coach and helping others enjoy their lives. She hosts Workshops, does one on one Coaching and is working on her first book.  You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com

 

What I Crave

Yesterday was not a very pretty day Inbarbsworld. I allowed something to bother me to the point of sadness. That doesn’t happen very often and it’s not a good feeling. My daughter drove to the store and bought a cake. That helped.

blogThis morning I received an email from a Blog I follow. This guy has wisdom and I enjoy learning from him. He always pulls me up to the 30,000 foot view and helps me see the big picture. His name is Leo Babuata from Zen Habits.

He is studying Buddhas Four Noble Truths in more depth and he mentions ‘crave.’ It made me ponder what I crave besides cake with buttercream icing on an off day. This part of the article drew me back to where I needed to be.

“Just be in the moment you’re in, and see what’s actually in front of you. Not what you read into the moment, but what’s really there, in terms of light and sound and physical molecules. See if you can accept all of that exactly as it is, without craving something else, without avoiding what’s there. Just accept.”

blogOnce my day was done yesterday, I felt drained and alone. Today, I will do a better job at sitting in the present moment and seeing what is there. Sometimes I try to read more into the moment than is really there. That is not healthy for me today.

If you have read any of my Blogs, you know, I am a woman filled with love. To cover people with love and help them feel special brings me joy. When I do this throughout the day, my cup can start to empty. Give from the saucer not the cup.

When you give love, make sure you are receiving it in return. It’s okay to give some and not receive, but don’t give your all. If you do, you will go to sleep like I did, feeling empty, alone and craving love.

 

blackandwhiteBarbara is a writer and loves being a Mom to her 15 year old daughter. It’s a dream come true for her to be a Let It Go Coach and helping others enjoy their lives. She hosts Workshops, does one on one Coaching and is working on her first book.  You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com

Unicorns and Rainbows

Bailey and I have the same sense of humor. Her’s is more colorful than mine, but we laugh at the same things. Sometime we get to laughing so hard at one another we cry. We say our life is made up of Unicorns and Rainbows.

blogOur life is so beautiful and we are addicted to pretty. It all started with a thought and that is what our life became. My previous Blogs have mentioned what we took with us when we left life as we knew it. If it was pretty and brought us joy, it made the list. We set up a home of pretty.

We find joy in God and this new life He has given us. The journey began a couple of years ago, and just gets better. I do not clean windows. Never have found it useful because living in the country there is a lot of dirt. Bailey says I need a Unicorn to come by and lick them clean. That works.

Who doesn’t love rainbows? After every storm, I see a lot of pictures posted on Facebook of them. They are beautiful and Bailey and I are mesmerized by them. Every time we see one, we squeal and get excited like it’s the first time ever. It may be silly girl stuff, but that’s our life.

I don’t think it’s easy for a man to step into my world. They want to feel needed and I don’t really need anything. My ex husband grew resentful because I always see the beauty. Even on our darkest days there was a little sparkle somewhere that caught my eye.  Things that money can’t buy is what this girl needs. A look from across the room, a hug or touch and especially a really good kiss. The small touches are what adds beauty to this already beautiful life.

 

blackandwhiteBarbara is a writer and loves being a Mom to her 15 year old daughter. It’s a dream come true for her to be a Let It Go Coach and helping others enjoy their lives. She hosts Workshops, does one on one Coaching and is working on her first book.  You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com