Keep Fighting What

I backslid this morning and went down to the corner store for a cup of coffee. I’ve barely had any coffee with this round of Chemo. The trip to the store wasn’t about coffee after all.

Three days ago, I wrote a Blog and mentioned a song by Phillips, Craig, and Dean. Randy Phillips have been associated with a church in Austin, TX called Promiseland for years.  Standing at the counter of the store this morning, a lady walked up and started talking to me. I had met her before, and it was such a blessing just to take the time to catch up.

We walked outside, and she said something that quickly got my attention. She asked if I was familiar with Promisland Church Austin, and I told her yes. They are bringing a satellite church September 11th to Lockhart, TX. Literally 10 minutes from where I live. We exchanged phone numbers and made plans to go together. So glad I went for that coffee.

This is how God moves in my life.

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I saw this Meme earlier this week and saved it. Didn’t really know why at the time, but today, it makes sense. I noticed that this round of Chemo was trying to kick my butt. I’ve been on a vicious cycle of eating, and sleep the week of, and my quality of life was suffering.

My daughter was visiting a friend last weekend, and this gave me time to ponder who I wanted to be, versus who I was becoming. I was allowing my current circumstances to dictate my quality of life. This was crap. I am better than this, so Monday morning things changed. I made a list of what I wanted to accomplish and started working on the list.

I’ve acquired a new curiosity for life. The things I listed are things God has shown me, that I had put on the back burner due to lack of energy. It was time to look at what I wanted, who I wanted to be, and get to work. My body has been through hell, and I’ve been caring for the inside with good nutrition. It was time to show some care to the outer shell, so Yoga began.

I started doing Yoga 3 years ago and loved it. It makes my body happy, and I’m a firm believer in using your body to strengthen itself. This lead to reading more about it, and downloading some other books that I’ve been curious about. Strengthening the mind, and body so to speak. I got everything accomplished on my list, so today we have a new one.

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Rebuilding myself from where I am today. People have often said to me, “Keep fighting.” That sounded strange because it didn’t feel like a fight. The Chemo was fighting the Cancer, but I discovered what I was fighting for was my life. Not to get lost in the circumstances, and not to become my circumstances. I am not the same woman I was in March. I am better.

I said to someone yesterday, “This has been a remarkable journey.” He said, “I’ve never heard it described that way before.” That is probably true because it’s easy to let the Chemo become bigger than you. Get curious about life again. Muster up all the strength you have and use it to start over. This journey is coming to an end, but it took me straight to a new one.

 

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Barbara is a Writer, Certified Letting Go Coach, and Mom to her 17-year-old daughter. When she started this Blog in 2014 Letitgocoach was the name that stuck. She enjoys helping people Let Go of what is holding them back from having a beautiful life. Part of her mission is to show people they can start over at 50. Her life is beautiful, and an example of Letting Go and Letting God. You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com

 

 

 

Tea and Me

I opened an Instagram account this year. My daughter has had one for a while, and she posts the most beautiful pictures, especially during her travels. My daughter loves photography and is great at editing for effect. I am not the greatest, and just use my phone as a tool, but it brings me joy. It’s something new to learn and stretch myself this year.

This year is about being the best Barb I can be. If you read yesterday’s Blog, there was a question asked that has become our theme for the year. In a word, it’s about unbecoming.

teanme (524x640)I grew up in North Carolina and on sweet tea. Moving to Texas, I quickly discovered, they have tea, but no sweet tea. Putting sugar in a glass of already made tea is not happiness.

This is where my love of hot tea came in. I have never been a fan of hot tea, but at least it would dissolve sugar! I recalled attending Mother/Daughter teas when my daughter was younger, and how delightful they were. The tea was delicious and it made for a beautiful experience. Somewhere along my path, I discovered Zhi Tea. They bring me happiness.

Hot tea has enhanced my life in beautiful ways. Whenever I need a moment to be good to myself, I fix a cup of tea. I rarely miss a day, and some days require an entire press of tea.

Beauty is all around, but sometimes we have to seek it. If you’re not seeing the beauty in your life, just be still and let it reveal itself to you. It’s there just waiting for your attention.

Barbara is a writer, Entrepreneur and Mom to her 16-year-old daughter. She loves dipping cookies in her coffee in the morning and has a pretty healthy obsession for chocolate. When she started this Blog in 2014 Letitgocoach was what stuck. She enjoys helping people Let Go of what is holding them back from having a beautiful life. Her life today is an example of Letting Go and Letting God. You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com

I Bought Chocolate

It was 70 degrees and sunny today here in Texas. It may not feel like winter outdoors, but I can tell it’s a different season. There’s a slight bit of hibernation going on in my world, as I ponder what the New Year will bring. I ate way too much chocolate in December, and have not had any in my house for a couple of weeks. I fixed that on the way home this afternoon. deskThis was my desk this morning. As I tried to find a place to set my coffee cup, I scanned the area and laughed outloud. Everything sitting on this side of the desk is something to be written in. I walked up to the desk carrying the journal with the blingy pen, and rested it on the corner. You may recall that one from Simplistic Journaling a few days ago. There are three journals, a large, red leather binder, a couple of pair of glasses and pens in the mix.

By looking at the desk, you can tell, I love to write. Have I always written? Nope.

This Blog is not even two years old. It was a lot of small choices over the years that brought me to where I am today. This Blog has represented my life being pretty and simple, but how did it get to here? The question I was asked today was, “How did the writer get to the point from struggle to pretty?” Well, it all started when I left life as I knew it almost 3 years ago.

hwyI snapped the picture you see here on my way home today. Before I took this, I was driving through Austin, Texas at 4:45 pm. Can you imagine the chaos? Being in all that traffic gave me a feeling of what my life was like before this Blog. Getting through it knowing there is beauty on the other side of it. I enjoy visiting the city, but I enjoy a simple, pretty life more.

If you are looking to simplify your life, you’re at the right place. It was probably one of the biggest and toughest decisions I ever made, but it has completely changed my life. My hope is you will be encouraged on your journey, know you’re not alone and just be happy.

 

Barbara is a writer, Entrepreneur and Mom to her 16-year-old daughter. She loves dipping cookies in her coffee in the morning and has a pretty healthy obsession for chocolate. When she started this Blog in 2014 Letitgocoach was what stuck. She enjoys helping people Let Go of what is holding them back from having a beautiful life. Her life today is an example of Letting Go and Letting God. You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com