Tag: #awareness

Be the Mama

I try not to rush anymore, but recently I found myself getting sucked into life’s frenzy.

This morning it was time to stop.

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I’ve been watching my daughter.

At 19 years old she has wisdom and discernment, and makes sound decisions. I’ve stepped back to let her practice running her own life. Watching how she manages it, and giving her plenty of space. She’s been adulting very well except for this one thing….

She’s exhausted.

Mentally and physically.

Time For a Change

I took a long look at how busy she has been. We both have, but I could also feel a disconnect. We are more than roommates. We actually do this life together, but when she came home Monday from her Dad’s, she sat down and fell asleep in her chair.

Her visits with her Dad haven’t changed since the move, even though the distance has.  He’s only ten minutes away now instead of an hour, but she still packs her duffel bag every Friday, and heads to his home. Stays the weekend and comes back here on Monday. She has three days before doing it all again.

I’m Still the Mama

She communicates with her Dad, and they make their own plans, until this morning. While she slept, I texted him and told him she is staying home this weekend. It was time to step in and be the Mama.

When she awoke, I told her what I did, and she looked mortified that I had stepped in, but you know what else I saw? Relief. And a slight smile.

This weekend she doesn’t have to be an adult. We will spend time together doing whatever we choose.

Today was a good day to step in and be the Mama.

Journey to the Heart

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The Kitchen Window

I love my kitchen window. There is always something interesting going on whenever I walk by. This causes me to stop, stand in front of it and gaze out in that moment. Maybe it’s a ‘Present Moment Portal’, and not just a window.

2015-09-22 09.02.06I gave away two of our four cats yesterday. These two guys got to stay. I saw them out the window, in the field next to the house, as the day was flooding in, catching mice. That is their job and they do it well.

The other two laid on the pillows in my porch swing, expecting me to walk by and pour cat food in their mouths. I found them a new home. To enjoy the present moment, you need to place yourself in the space to enjoy it. Today, I got to sit in my swing and enjoy that early morning moment.

Do you ever worry about things that haven’t even happened yet?

That is where I spent yesterday. I am not a worrier, and I teach people how to let go of worry and overwhelm. I read an article the other day by a man who teaches about the present moment, and he caught himself multitasking. Bringing way too much into his moment.  He made a vow to go back to single tasking and enjoying each task.  Awareness is the first step to change.

Toward the end of the month, I tend to become worried about the house payment for the upcoming month. I think this is from going through foreclosure on a home years ago. There is still that lingering uncertainty.

Looking at the facts, there is nothing to worry about. Have I always made the house payment? Yes. Does it place me in a financial hardship? No. Am I grateful for my home and for God providing such a beautiful place to live? Yes.

“Trust me and refuse to worry,” were the first words in my devotional this morning. “Keep your mind in the present moment. Among all My creatures, only humans can anticipate future events. This ability is a blessing, but it becomes a curse when it’s misused. If you use your magnificent mind to worry, you cloak yourself in dark unbelief. However, when the hope of heaven fills your thoughts, the Light of My Presence envelops you.” Jesus Calling by Sarah Young.

That is God’s plan for today, which sounds a lot more refreshing than mine from yesterday. That plan, is a good plan.

 

blackandwhiteBarbara is a writer and loves being a Mom to her 16 year old daughter. It’s a dream come true for her to be a Letitgocoach and help others enjoy their lives. She hosts Workshops, does one on one Coaching and is writing her first book.  You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com