Stork and Me

Three years ago, I told God I wanted nothingness. Just put me in nothingness. Well, it’s true when they say, “Be careful what you ask for. You just might get it!” He plopped me on 40 acres, with my daughter, and a new beginning.

piermcdadeWhen I knew it was past time for me to leave my marriage of 25 years, I prayed the God would show us where to go. At first, I was hoping my daughter and I would be able to stay in our home, and that my husband would leave. He wasn’t leaving, and I guess he thought I wouldn’t either. He had another thing coming.

I was so hungry for more. Beauty, peace, joy, happiness, and a life reflecting His very best. I couldn’t really fathom what that would look like, because He is God, but I knew it had to be better than where I had allowed myself to be. It was that faithful day, I was standing outside, and my daughter walked up to me and said, “Mama? Are you ever gonna smile again?” It was time for a huge leap of faith.

If you want to read all about Stork, and what He’s meant in my life, you can do so here. I believe God will give us signs we are on the right path. Stork has been mine.

storkI didn’t know where to go. Where would be our new home? My daughter started looking, and found a house an hour away from where we were. We looked at several houses, but none of them seemed quite right. When she found this one, I asked, “Where the heck is McDade, TX?” We drove to find out.

After looking at numerous houses, I was ready for a sign. I asked God to make it crystal clear, if this was going to be our new home. Make it obscenely obvious, because sometimes I need that. We met the man that owned the little house, at the house, and he showed us around. I knew it was when Mr. Rick said the exact same words as I had asked God. He said, “What do you think? Is this your new home?” Knocked me over.

It was still a scary process, waking up out in the middle of nowhere. We were surrounded by 40 acres, and lots of wildlife. Mr. Rick, and his wife, Patricia, lived across the pond from us, so we weren’t completely alone. God has His Angels firmly planted. I still laugh when I think back at the first time I called them at 2:00 am, after hearing footsteps on the porch.I-know

No honey, those were hooves, not feet. We had our first encounter with wild boar. “Stay inside”, she said. “They are just as afraid of you, as you are of them.” I wasn’t so sure. We bought a shotgun, but never had to use it. God had our backs.

Stepping out onto the front porch of that little house for the first time, coffee in hand, it looked just like nothingness. I asked God, “If this is where we’re supposed to be…If we are on Your path, You gotta show me something please.”

My eyes were drawn down to the left, where a pond and a pier stood still. At the end of that pier, was the most beautiful Great Blue Heron! He was just standing there majestically, with complete confidence, which at the time I didn’t have. He looked at me as if to say, “Good morning Dear. God sent me to tell you. Welcome home.” It was absolutely beautiful!

That was years ago, but Stork is still in my life today. While visiting Mr. Smith, and his lake was newly recovering from the drought, I gazed out my writing room window, and spotted him. Same stance, same message as before.

He is still here today, and I love watching him fly in to catch his breakfast. He doesn’t stay long, but just a glimpse is all I desire. Jeremiah 29:11 says it all Beautiful Souls. He has a good plan. If you are sitting in nothingness, it just might be your new home. That house is where God healed me from all the hurt from my past. That is where I became a Letting Go Coach.

That leap of faith was the first step of a new life, and a life of beauty. I don’t know if I will ever know what God’s very best looks like, but I’m going to enjoy the journey, and the little glimpses He gives. I’m obviously on the right path.

 

 

What We’re Missing

Mornings are sacred to me. Being Winter in Texas means the day breaks on the front of the house. My bedroom is on the side, but I love watching it become light outside from my bed.

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This photo is of a driveway. I always feel a burst of excitement that is childlike when driving over it. The sound of the tires rolling through the overflow of water awakens my inner child.

I am sure many people drive through this each day, but I wonder what they see. Do they just see a flooded road, or do they take time to see the natural beauty of it. Do they notice?

When I moved to this little farmhouse, the first thing I noticed was traffic. I had been living on 40 acres before, so I could hear the traffic, but couldn’t see it. This house is on a main road, and a car drives by every few seconds. Will I ever get used to it?

It’s been nine months living here and I still notice the traffic. I believe God played a little game with me a few moments ago. For many minutes it was perfectly quiet. It was so quiet, I actually stepped outside just to see for myself. There were no cars riding by, and it had been that way for a while. I noticed.

Barbara is a writer, Entrepreneur and Mom to her 16-year-old daughter. She loves dipping cookies in her coffee in the morning and has a pretty healthy obsession for chocolate. When she started this Blog in 2014 Letitgocoach was what stuck. She enjoys helping people Let Go of what is holding them back from having a beautiful life. Her life today is an example of Letting Go and Letting God. You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com

 

 

Way Beyond Me

I had a call from a dear friend this morning. His wife wants to move out to the country. He is a city boy and had lots of questions about wild animals, sustainable living and the Internet. He thinks I’m brave being a single Mom, living in the country. I hope he will embrace this quality of life and enjoy the country. He’s a brave soul for living in the city.

You just can’t beat the drive. Listening to music with the windows open, in no hurry at all. I drive a little over the speed limit, but someone always comes flying up behind me on this last stretch of highway to my house. They are in such a hurry, and the passing lanes are few. Sometimes, I’ll pull over and let them pass, so that I can continue to enjoy the drive. They are focused on the destination, not the journey and they probably didn’t notice this Texas sky.

skyblogThis is the highway to my home that I get to drive down. Did you notice I said, “Get to?” I pulled over earlier today and took this picture to share with you. Within minutes, it will look different, but just as stunningly beautiful. I have run off to the side of the road before while driving and staring at this sky. This is way beyond me.

I love the way God give us things to enjoy, but they are out of our reach. Like this incredible sky is all Him, and we ‘get to’ enjoy it’s beauty. TobyMac has a song entitled, “Beyond Me“, and he talks about God giving us the stars but putting them out of reach. Called us to waters a little too deep. God wants us to know, He did this.

The next part of the song says, “You take me to the place where I know I need You.
Straight to the depths that I can’t handle on my own And Lord I know, I know I need You So take me to Your great Take me to Your great unknown.” If I’m headed to the great unknown, who better to follow than God?

trustI wrote a Blog a couple of days ago entitled, God Is Sneaky. I put that wooden sign in my truck and headed into town. On the way there, I had the feeling it wasn’t for the person I had intended it for. God had a better plan. This morning at church, we had a guest preacher. His wife stood up and told us about their daughter being in a serious car accident. She said she lost all control when she heard the news.

She was out in the driveway, half dressed, twirling around in a frenzy when God called her to a standstill. If you read the Blog I mentioned, you can guess what He told her. “Be still.” Be still and know that I am God.

As I was leaving the church, I asked a lady to walk to my truck with me. I reached in my truck and handed her the wooden sign to give to the preacher’s wife because Matthew 6:4 says, “So your giving may be done in secret.” The lady was amazed I had this in my truck, realizing this verse is what God had told that preacher’s wife after the wreck.

I pray she is blessed, and God is glorified over that wooden sign. It’s not about me and thank God this is way beyond me.

 

 

 

God Is Sneaky

I have listened to a lot of Joyce Meyer over the years. I enjoy her because she yells, and yes, I need that. She went through a season where she was afraid to wear any of her favorite jewelry out in public. She was afraid God would tell her to give it away. I laugh at that now, but there was a season in my life it wasn’t so funny. Just a part of letting go.

openEverything we own is on loan to us from God. You may think you bought something for yourself or a family member’s use, but God might have other plans. I have been standing at the checkout of a grocery store before, and the cashier fell in love with the bracelet I was wearing. As I said, “Thank you,” God prompted me to give it to her.

God is sneaky that way. A few weeks ago, I was standing in an aisle of one of my favorite stores looking at notebooks for my daughter. I spotted this wooden sign with one of my favorite verses on it. “Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10.

The isle I was in didn’t have these on display, so it was out of place, just laying there for me to see. It is bright pink, which is not my style for this type thing, but I already knew it was not for me. It got my attention with it’s bright color, and that verse. My daughter looked at me inquisitively when I bought it, but then she knew. It’s not ours.

I collect those wooden signs, so God knew that I would see it. He has already told me who to give it to and it makes sense. Do you have things you have bought and you’re not sure why? God knows why.

Let me encourage you today to be grateful for everything you have, look at what you don’t need, and ask God, ‘Who’s it for?”

blackandwhiteBarbara is a writer and loves being a Mom to her 16 year old daughter. It’s a dream come true for her to be a Letitgocoach and help others enjoy their lives. She hosts Workshops, does one on one Coaching and is writing her first book.  You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com

 

Be Still And Know

It’s an honor and a privilege to be writing for the Sisters of Serenity and Sobriety each Friday. What a fabulous end to my work week! As soon as this happened last night, I looked at my daughter and said, “There’s my Blog for Katie!”

Losing my home and having it go through foreclosure years ago was heart wrenching. Ever since then I have rented a home to live in. Sometimes for a only a year, or maybe two years max. I enjoy moving and living wherever God leads.

growyou1The home my daughter and I live in today is an old farmhouse, on 5 acres, that has been restored to its natural beauty. We have been here four months and the rent is due the first week of the month. I received a text last night from my landlord, asking for it pronto. I made myself sit still.

If this would have happened before sobriety, it would have prompted me to drink. The majority of my income goes into PayPal, so it takes a few days for it to move into my checking. There was not enough money in my checking to cover rent this quickly. Time to breathe and respond.

I was so grateful for that moment. To be able to be caught off guard and not react in a drunken spew. Stopping and asking God for guidance and to be my words is all it took. We talked it through via text and it will all work out. The first thing I said to my daughter when it happened was, “This is a test. I have to pass this test!”

katieblogGod is making me better. It’s little things like this that make us stronger. I handed my landlord the check this morning and told him I have moved the money from PayPal, but when it shows up is in God’s hands. Moving forward, I will pay them on the first of every month. I don’t have to play the victim today and sit on a pity pot.

Living life on life’s terms sober is how I roll. Whatever life throws at me is for my good. It will grow me and if nothing else makes me grateful. Being grateful for a sound mind, not clouded by alcohol and a strong heart. To be able to love myself and not have to blame anyone for their behavior making me want to drink. I am free.

God is my fortress. He is my shelter from every storm. By walking through what lies ahead and getting to the other side unscathed, life is indeed beautiful. I encourage you today to be still and know, He is God. He doesn’t need our help, only our hearts.

 

blackandwhiteBarbara is a writer and loves being a Mom to her 16 year old daughter. It’s a dream come true for her to be a Letitgocoach and help others enjoy their lives. She hosts Workshops, does one on one Coaching and is writing her first book.  You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com

 

 

 

 

Enjoy The Plan

I love how life flows. Sitting here at my desk, looking out the window, and seeing a beautiful day in store. Texas has had a lot of rain, so the sunshine feels good. The house was perfectly still a moment ago, until Gus, our Blue Heeler,  decided to jump up and start barking at something unseen by me. It can be still and become startling  in an instant.

reasonI saw this post this morning and thought it was just beautiful. I tried to post it full size so you could enjoy every ounce of it’s splendor along with me. That didn’t work too well.

Coffee in hand and bread rising in the oven is the start of a great day. Taking a peep out the front door, I see Gus has lost his spot on the front porch. It is has been taken by Mama cat and her four kittens. They are learning to play together.

Typing these words is what I’m doing now. The house is still once again and so am I.

Being still and enjoying each moment is my sweet spot. I don’t have to have a plan because the day already has one. It was planned out before I woke up, but I get to walk through and enjoy what I see. Noticing the mini Grandfather clock sitting by the door has stopped swinging it’s pendulum, tells me it’s time for a new battery. Make a note.

My desk has a reasonable order to it this morning. My morning devotional sits beside my left arm with my reading glasses resting on top. It was read hours ago at the very start of my day.

To the right is my cell phone, coffee, notes, books and my vaping supplies. Yes, I quit smoking last year and now enjoy vaping. It’s still a habit but I believe it’s healthier and cleaner than cigarettes.

I am surrounded by several of my favorite things on my desk. It is much like my life in general. Surround myself with people and things who will love me, help motivate me, encourage me, inspire me, enhance me and bring happiness to my world. This is as far as I’ve gotten into today. There are things I want to accomplish, like setting up a schedule for my daughter to continue with her home school courses through the summer. That is work and not needed here.

If we stay in the present moment and enjoy the plan before us, it’s not a lot of work. I love the verse that says, “Be still and know that I am God.” Today’s devotional from Jesus Calling by Sara Young said, “Let Go, relax, be still and know that I am God.” I love what He is doing and I love the people He has placed in my life to share the journey.

 

sefieBarbara is a writer and loves being a Mom to her 15 year old daughter. It’s a dream come true for her to be a Let It Go Coach and wants to help others enjoy their lives. She hosts Workshops, and does one on one Coaching. You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com