Learning With Chemo

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“A writer needs to write”, they say. This is true. I think of something to write about almost everyday, but it rarely ends up here. As a writer, I get focused on sounding eloquent,  or making sure there is true meaning to my words. They also say, “Write. Even if it doesn’t make any sense.” You may be seeing some of that soon. My life doesn’t make a lot of sense.

I have a sister who is ten years older than me. Ten years ago, she went through the same kind of Breast Cancer I have. It even occurred the same time of year. The doctors know more now, so my journey is easier than hers. She started sharing a list of things not to do during Chemo. I just laughed and said, “Oh, I’ve already done all of that. Thanks though!”

The sun is not your friend. I used to love to soak up the sunshine, and just feel it penetrate my skin. I did that after one of my Chemo Treatments, and paid the price for two days after.

Do not Google your symptoms, or any side effects. I love Google, and use it all the time, but for Chemo? Google is not your friend. They list every side effect imaginable, and there are some horror stories out there. I was terrified of the thought of Chemo, and then I read a comment, “Cancer doesn’t kill. Chemo does.” I was done with Google, and would call my doctor if needed.

I believe God has given me a relatively easy path through this, so I can share with others.

There will be things you need to modify. It’s all about your body, and what it’s going through. It’s time to listen to, and be kind to your body. Pretty much every little thing you did before Chemo, you will be grateful for afterwards. I have a lot of gratitude for what it has shown me, and you can read more about that here. You will get through this, and be better for it.

It’s ‘body over mind’ time Beautiful Souls.

I drug my 50 lb. fully loaded trashcan down the driveway, and to the street just like before. Once was enough. I thought my heart would explode.

I sat out in the sun for 20 minutes with my daughter. It completely drained me for two days.

When your body says, “Stop”, just stop and stretch out across your bed. It needs to rest.

The main thing is to pour more goodness into the body, than poison. Chemo stays in your system for 48 hours, and then leaves, so be careful the day of, and two days after. Eat small meals of goodness. Fruit, veggies, good cheeses, with crackers. Do you buy those Goldfish crackers for your kids? Eat them all. Parmesan Goldfish taste delightful right after Chemo.

I drink a ton of liquid nutrition. It has been my very best friend, and you can find that here.

If you, or someone you know is going down this Chemo path, please feel free to share. The path may not look beautiful at first, but this has been the literal ride of my life. #grateful

 

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Barbara is a Writer, Certified Letting Go Coach, and Mom to her 16-year-old daughter. When she started this Blog in 2014 Letitgocoach was the name that stuck. She enjoys helping people Let Go of what is holding them back from having a beautiful life. She found out in March of this year that she has Breast Cancer. Going through Chemo, and believing God for a miracle is where she stands. Her life is beautiful, and an example of Letting Go and Letting God. You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com

 

 

 

 

 

Unicorns and Rainbows

Bailey and I have the same sense of humor. Her’s is more colorful than mine, but we laugh at the same things. Sometime we get to laughing so hard at one another we cry. We say our life is made up of Unicorns and Rainbows.

blogOur life is so beautiful and we are addicted to pretty. It all started with a thought and that is what our life became. My previous Blogs have mentioned what we took with us when we left life as we knew it. If it was pretty and brought us joy, it made the list. We set up a home of pretty.

We find joy in God and this new life He has given us. The journey began a couple of years ago, and just gets better. I do not clean windows. Never have found it useful because living in the country there is a lot of dirt. Bailey says I need a Unicorn to come by and lick them clean. That works.

Who doesn’t love rainbows? After every storm, I see a lot of pictures posted on Facebook of them. They are beautiful and Bailey and I are mesmerized by them. Every time we see one, we squeal and get excited like it’s the first time ever. It may be silly girl stuff, but that’s our life.

I don’t think it’s easy for a man to step into my world. They want to feel needed and I don’t really need anything. My ex husband grew resentful because I always see the beauty. Even on our darkest days there was a little sparkle somewhere that caught my eye.  Things that money can’t buy is what this girl needs. A look from across the room, a hug or touch and especially a really good kiss. The small touches are what adds beauty to this already beautiful life.

 

blackandwhiteBarbara is a writer and loves being a Mom to her 15 year old daughter. It’s a dream come true for her to be a Let It Go Coach and helping others enjoy their lives. She hosts Workshops, does one on one Coaching and is working on her first book.  You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com