My daughter laughed as I put this reminder in my calendar. “Only my Mother schedules a candle pickup”, she quipped. Life is not all business. You have to schedule in goodness too.
The lady who sent the email owns a local shoppe and we’ve become friends. She saw me fall in love with the candle last year and when the holidays were over, the candle disappeared.
She promised to get it back in her shoppe this year and said she would email me. She stayed true to her word and in turn, I went to pick it up!
We are only as good as our word.
I’m being careful not to overextend myself this year. To stay present and go with the flow as life unfolds. It’s a matter of slowing the pace and saying, ‘no’ a lot. A fast ‘yes’ is face to face with my daughter, a neighbor, or friend. Connectivity is so important and I’m happy to be still for that.
It hasn’t been lit yet, but there’s time.
Pumpkins on the front porch and listening to Christmas music as I type. Savor the moments.
The coffee is a bonus. It’s the people I gravitate toward. Today, their love and kindness blew me away. God had it all lined up for me to walk in at just the right moment. The owner was making something specifically for my heart.
I walked in and he yelled, “Barbara! I am making something for you!” The timing is what amazed me, because I rarely walk in the same time of day. My daughter said, “When they know you all too well at the coffee shop?” That is love.
He had bought a beautiful pour over, along with my favorite kettle! I was literally screaming in awe of this magnificent sight! He was beaming with excitement. It was a moment.
He said that he envisioned my daughter and I sitting at a table, sharing this moment. He would be right. Just the other day, my daughter said she wished he had a pour over.
A friend takes time out of her busy schedule each day to send a video of her life, and thoughts. That is love.
You are here, taking time to read this. That is love.
I write about a beautiful life, and that is my hearts desire to share with you. Right now, I feel the need to get this out, and writing always helps soothe the soul.
Once again, I am waiting.
Last Friday, I went in for my 6 month checkup, and had a mammogram.
It began as routine, and then the technician came in for more scans. This is the left breast that held Cancer last year. After having 6 scans, I was escorted into the sonogram room. The technician rolled the handheld device over my breast for what seemed like a very long time. She sent the scans to be reviewed by the doctor, and in came the doctor.
The doctor tried to sound casual as she spoke. “You have a couple of areas I’m not sure about, but they are not screaming Cancer to me. I’d like to see you again in six months.”
Does Cancer scream?
I left there concerned, but not worried. Wasn’t going to jump to any conclusions until my Oncologist saw the film. I knew she would know if there was any cause for concern.
She called today and wants to see me. “There are areas of concern…” Her first available appointment is 10/24, which is almost two weeks away. I ask that you wait with me.
I am blessed to enjoy moments everyday, but for some, that is not possible yet. To relax your body, and mind to the point of seeing what is happening right in front of you.
My fave moment this week by far, was with my daughter.
She came home Monday, and was mentally and physically exhausted from her weekend of travel. It was late afternoon, as I stretched out across my bed; gazing out the window to clear my mind, and relax. She came in my room wrapped in one of her favorite blankets. We call it ‘bonding’ time.
She curled up at the head of the bed, and laid against a mass of pillows. She started telling me everything about her weekend, as I laid at the foot of the bed and listened.
We laughed at things that happened, and were somber about others.
In moments, time is passing, but it feels very still.
I couldn’t hear her voice anymore, as I looked over to see her asleep. She had talked it all out, and now she could rest. I tiptoed out of the room, taking the moment with me.
Late yesterday evening, I broke a water pipe outside. I was grateful to be directed to the water shut off valve, and that the explosion of water was outdoors.
My first thought was, “Let’s see if I can fix it.”
Three years ago, I had a barn full of a little bit of everything. There was rubber cement for fixing this PVC elbow that had popped off. That barn is no longer a part of my life, so I called the man who built this house. He called a friend to come out early this morning, which he did. We now have water again.
I used to be good at fixing things. I guess I still am, but today, I try not to break anything to the point of having to fix it. Accidents happen, just like that PVC cap popping off from the pressure of the water hose attached.
My experiences have taught me well, and I continue to learn from them everyday. Everything happens for a reason. By watching, listening and waiting, time reveals all. I don’t always need an explosion.
I don’t want to fix situations, or people today.
Using a tool to repair a broken object brings satisfaction, but not in people. What we do in the present moment, dictates what follows in the next few moments.