Heard this song come on the radio this morning. It made me smile because I have learned this lesson. The Don’t Wants.
When my daughter and I go to a garden center, we take a look at the sad shelf. This is the shelf of plants, drastically reduced in price from over-watering. They all look sad.
Maybe that is why I started caring for plants. If I could care for them properly, and give them a healthy environment, then I could do the same for me. The plants and I are growing.
The people traveling with us on our journey should add to our happiness. If we are not surrounded by happiness, it’s time to take a look at the people we allowed onto our path.
There is a role for everyone we meet, but how healthy are they? How well they care for themselves, is how well they care for you. The sad shelf is not a pretty place to be.
I went down to the corner store this morning, and was greeted by my friend behind the counter. We love one another like good friends do, even though I just met him a couple of years ago. He is a real life superhero in my book.
I don’t know his story, only what I’ve seen. He has a heart the size of Texas, but he isn’t native Texan. He is from another country, and he runs the only store in little Dale Texas.
Last Thanksgiving, he was overwhelmed with gifts of food from the locals. He said it was a huge difference from the previous year. He received a couple of pigs that year, but last year it was in the double digits. He has a good heart, but it took time for people to see it, believe it, and trust him.
He asked, “You missed the fireworks lastnight?”
I responded, “I saw them from my front porch.”
He asked, “Are you okay?” Tapping his chest in reference to last years Breast Cancer.
I reassured him, “I am good, just tired I guess.”
Then it was like God entered the conversation, because he said, “Of people?” We were talking about health, so this comment surprised me. The fireworks celebration brings in a lot of people, so it hit me right in the heart when he said this.
Tears welled up in my eyes as I looked at him and said, “Maybe.”
He started shaking his head furiously, and said, “NO NO NO.”
He opened his arms, leaned across the counter, and pulled me into his arms, like it was forbidden for me to be tired of people. He hugged me, let me go, and said, “You are good.”
A few months ago, my daughter said, “You’re always staring at that phone!” She looks at hers too, but mainly to connect with friends. I was checking all my Social Media accounts.
Something was going to change, and it was me.
I’ve done pretty much the same thing the past few years.
I’m finding balance between people and technology.
Is the phone a tool, or a lifeline? How do you use yours?
It helps us stay connected to those we love, but I became loved out. I allowed my phone to be shut off for 3 weeks, and I didn’t miss it. The only thing I missed was calling my sister, and hearing her voice. I even printed out some of my Blogs, and mailed them to her to let her see what I’ve been doing.
I use a laptop, or pen to paper to write. No phone.
God has given me two more Blogs, but WordPress is where I began. The WordPress community is an actual community. When someone outside of WordPress reads your Blog, they cannot like, or comment without opening an account. If they are not already in WordPress, they have to join. No likes or comments from friends outside WordPress. ‘Social’ Media?
Do you know how much of you is in your phone?
Do you know it’s big business to sell contact information?
How would you feel if it fell in water and you lost it all?
Can you leave the house without it, and enjoy yourself?
These are just a few things I learned without my phone. Why did I turn it back on? My landlord tried contacting me, and when I didn’t respond, he was worried something was wrong. I told him it was shut off, and he couldn’t fathom it.
This is our kitten and his name is John Cena.
My daughter named him, and it’s fun yelling JOHHHHHHN CEEEEENA all day. He knows his name, and walks into view when we call him. Unless, he is asleep somewhere.
He isn’t allowed in our bedrooms, but yesterday, I was sitting in bed, writing in a journal, and dozed off. When I awoke, John Cena was not only in my room, but in my bed! His paws wrapped around my ankle, and using my bare foot as his pillow. I just sat there wishing I had my phone to snap a pic.
My daughter said, “It’s a good thing you had your phone in the bed, so you could snap that pic.” I didn’t have my phone. Luckily, John stayed put while I found it. I bought my daughter a small plaque that says, “I love you more than my phone.” It feels good to say that, but even better to feel it.
My daughter and I drove to San Antonio this morning, but as we were getting ready, she played this song. It reminded me of the kind of love I’ve always wanted in a relationship.
Looking up the video to share with you, I noticed it was posted 4 years ago. That was right after I left my 25 year marriage, and vowed to myself this crazy kinda love. “I don’t want good, and I don’t want good enough.” I’m not gonna settle for anything less than crazy. (The good kind)
Hopes and dreams. Otherwise, our lives merely exist.
My life is evolving. Much has changed in the past month, and even more in the past week! “The Love Button“, spoke about the opportunity on Facebook to give and receive love. This caused me to take a look at my personal Facebook timeline.
My personal timeline has become my virtual ‘dream board’.
A dream board is commonly used among Entrepreneurs. Years ago, we cut pictures from magazines, and attached them to poster-board. Once complete, the board would be filled with photos, displaying a life beyond our wildest dreams! Today we have technology so, “Hello 2017.”
This photo popped up on my Facebook news-feed. My heart ran as fast as it could into that photo! My life is simple, so skip the fancy couch. A Yoga mat, or pillow will do just fine. The view is what made my heart squeal with delight!
To live by the sea is a ‘hope and dream’ of mine.
The photo was posted by a Facebook page entitled, Hopes and Dreams, and was ‘liked’, by me immediately. A beautiful soul is behind this page, and we have become fast friends! God can work through photos to reveal what’s in our hearts!
For the past month a handful of Facebook pages, and the people behind them, have caused my heart to sing! Another page is Love Notes. This woman is full of love, hence the name. After hanging out with these ladies for just a few weeks, my timeline became a literal dream-board! This morning, Hopes and Dreams posted this quote by Jung.
God gives revelation in yearly increments. Once 30 years had passed, I knew my life would change. At the age of 35, my daughter was born, and by 40, my marriage was an unhealthy space for everyone involved. After trying to make it work for 8 more years, God opened a door for us to leave. At 48, my daughter and I began our new life together, with God.
Seeing this quote by Jung stirred up memories. My life continues to change, but is it my life changing, or my soul? Photos on Facebook, and the people posting them, have helped tap open my heart, and awaken dreams. You can see it on my timeline. My soul is awake as well. ‘Hope’, is what keeps us here, but ‘Dreams’ are where the soul wants to go.
To be continued on Bentnotbroken.net…
Sitting at my desk enjoying the day, in pajamas, and coffee within reach. The radio is quietly playing in the background. This entire time it felt like it was Sunday, instead of Saturday!
Listening to the music in the background, this song was playing. It’s one of the songs I played to praise, and worship God with while standing on The pier. That was where I re-connected with God, after leaving a 25 year, unhealthy marriage. A couple of weeks ago the pier was mentioned in this Feel the Music, so these songs still resonate with me.
In this song, “Words”, by Hawk Nelson, it feels like he is shouting out to God! That is how I felt then, and sometimes now. Plus, as writers, we have a thing about ‘Words’. Enjoy!
Let my words be life
Let my words be truth
I don’t wanna say a word
Unless it points the world back to You
Have a beautiful day, Beautiful Souls. Much love to you! ❤
We’ve been talking about Satan this week, and we are NOT done, but today is God’s day. Isn’t that what we are taught to believe? Sunday is God’s day. Right?
God is moving so fast in my life, I feel behind! Isn’t that where we’re supposed to be? Behind Him? He has many plans, but He waited until I was ready before He revealed them. How do I know they are His plans? Because they are my wildest dreams! (Another Blog)
We serve a God that wants to grant us our dreams, and He is a wild God! “Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.” (Ephesians 3:20 amp)
I have so many things I want to share with you right now, it’s overwhelming! It’s the good kind of overwhelm tho. My heart is racing, and I can’t type fast enough! God has always taken excellent care of me, and that is how this Blog started. To show you!
But now, I’m gonna ‘tell’ you some things.
Will you ‘like’ all of it? Probably not. I am not bashing Christians. I am one! You’ve been sitting in a pew, being spoon fed long enough! (They just closed the screen)
Is God quiet in your life? I have said that many times, “God? You are so quiet!” Nope. I was the one being quiet. He gave me a really big mouth, and the gift of writing. Wow! You go God! I’m finally ready for Him to use it. Heck! He gave me a year of rest!
To the naked eye, it looked like I had Breast Cancer, but He used Cancer to give me rest without an option. You know why? Because God can’t use a worn out warrior!
This song just came on the radio, and you need to take a listen. I stopped writing, and started jumping up and down singing along at the top of my lungs! My arms were swinging through the air, similar of a boxer. I’ll haveta ask my daughter to take a video, because it surprised me how much I looked like a fighter in that moment! God gave me a year off, so He would have His mighty warrior back! Right Olivia?
Do you know why people get offended? Oh! I know…I know! (This is where my hand shoots up it the air, hoping God will pick me to give the answer, like we did in school) I have studied, and learned this lesson because I used to be offended so easily. “Get over yourself Barb!” Oh, you mean it’s not about me? Thank you God!
What I write about is the lesson learned. Satan’s greatest weapon among BELIEVERS is offense. Did you get that? Lemme say it this way. “The truth hurts!” God sends people to teach us, so, to all those people still reading my Blog hoping to see if your name is mentioned? Thanks for the lesson!
BOOM! Did you hear that?!? That was some offended followers leaving, and the door slamming shut behind them! I bet they stalk my Facebook page too, just to see how I’m doing without them in my life. (Me- Waving bye. That’s another Blog)
I bought a book recently from a fellow Blogger. I haven’t read it yet, but I will. Hell, I couldn’t get past the first page! He said, “Raluca Adelina Hanu, this is not for you.”
Cristian Mihai!!!! YOU are a Badass!!!!! https://cristianmihai.net/
God must have really big plans for Cristian Mihai because that’s the poor guys name!
Can you imagine, if he’s waiting for someone at a coffee shop? He is just there, minding his own bizness. This person walks in, sees him, and yells, “HEY CRISTIAN!!!!” Gasp! I imagine everyone sitting there would stop and look in horror!
Now Cristian, thank you for letting me use your name today. If we ever meet in person, I have a huge hug with your name on it. I know….I know….I try not to write names, but it was all God. Oh….That sounded like I was blaming God. Woops! (That’s another Blog)
A friend sent me the above Meme yesterday. That is the kinda people I want in my life. ‘Spiritual Badasses.’ This friend is considered in today’s society a “Christian Lady.” I refer to her as ‘Potty Mouth”, and “Queen B”, (for Badass) because she cusses more than I do, and she ain’t scared of shit! She stared death straight in the face and said, “Get under my feet Satan, cuz God ain’t done with me yet!!!”
She is older than me, (forgive me for saying that), but with her extra years, she is filled with wisdom. I don’t ask for her ‘opinion’. I ask her to lay some ‘wisdom’ on me! Thank you God for Connie Moore! Oooops! I used her name! Well, one of her favorite sayings is, “Just do it, and ask forgiveness later”, but I won’t need to do that with her.
My God is yelling my name from the mountain tops! “HEY CHRISTIAN! I have some plans that are gonna blow your mind, but I need you to sit with me everyday!!!!”“For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the Lord, ‘plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster to give you a future and a hope.” (Jeremiah 29:11)
If Sunday is the only day you sit with God, that is between you and Him. My God wants to use me everyday, and that is scary. Have you been around me before?
I must be preachin’ good, because I just saw my very first snake in the yard. He was right in my path, and I almost stepped right on him!!! Isn’t Satan a snake in the Bible? If your life is quiet, it’s because Satan ain’t worried. Yea, I wrote it in bold because I haven’t been a threat to him in a long time, but guess what Satan? Be worried.
I am still lovin my house thumpin with dat bass thoooooo. If you are lost here, you can read our last Feel the Music, and catch up. Basically, my daughter figured out how to hook up the sub woofer to her stereo before she left to go visit her Dad.
I now know how to get her out of bed without even walking into her room!
It’s amazing how it feels when something is completely connected. We enjoyed the stereo pre-subwoofer, but now it’s like, Holy Cow! I can feel the vibration of the music. The whole house can, the cows, and probably the one neighbor!
It’s the same way when we are completely connected to God. I am learning to be still again, and just feel His presence. Just like in that Chemo chair. He is the vibration of life and love. This song has really good bass, so if you can, turn it up and feel it.
“I have this hope, in the depth of my soul. In the flood or the fire, you’re with me, and you won’t let go.”
My daughter received a stereo for Christmas from her Dad. This monster, is a dream come true for most. She hooked it up herself, but there was one piece she missed.
My daughter is all about the bass. She will hear a song, and say, “Dat bass thoooo!!!” She got the cord she needed from her Dad, and hooked it up right before she left on Friday.
You will note this sound system is against an outside wall. I walked into the kitchen after she left, and that entire wall, all the way past the kitchen was vibrating! Dat bass thoooo!
The house was literally thumpin! (My dog is getting used to it.)
To feel the music. This song just came on, and it has a lot of bass, so here ya go! The Mac says it best. “I feel it in my heart, I feel it in my soul. That’s how I know.” This is one of our favorite videos too. We would so do this. Tell me what you know!