When someone asks, “Are you okay?”, do you tell them the truth?
I’m really good at wearing the happy mask. Isn’t that what people expect?
I unloaded on a dear friend yesterday. She listened and laughed, because she knows me better than anyone. She has known me since my daughter was a baby, and has watched me overcome much. She told me, “I’m so proud of how far you’ve come!”
It’s funny because I’m the opposite of what the world sees as anything spectacular. She told me about the time she came to my first house in Texas. It was so elaborately decorated, she felt uncomfortable. Like walking into a magazine instead of my home. She thought, “I don’t belong here”, upon entering. Well, neither did I.
I cannot lie to her. She knows me too well.
My rant was about some areas in my life that I wasn’t happy with. Writing being one of them. I was frustrated by looking at the numbers again. This is the one area that Satan knows he can get me. Writing this Blog for three years, and I only have a handful of followers? Come on now. What the hell? She just continued to giggle.
This woman pretty much raised me in my walk with God, so she knows the numbers are not reliable. She doesn’t hit the ‘like’ button, or make a comment, but she reads every Blog. I am guessing a lot of people are like that, because the views I receive outweigh the follows. Am I the only one that struggles with the numbers?
Satan would love to shut me up. He would love for me to stop doing this thing that brings me the most joy. “Look at the numbers Barb. Nobody cares what you have to say.” he says. I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m gonna write until God tells me something different. God hasn’t told me to stop, but Satan? Everyday.
If he can get us discouraged, he wins. Well….Not Today Satan, Not Today.
Barbara is a Writer, a Certified Letting Go Coach, a Mom to her 17-year-old daughter, a recent Breast Cancer survivor, and she loves God. When she started this Blog in 2014 Letitgocoach was the name that stuck. She enjoys helping people Let Go of what is holding them back from having a beautiful life. Her life is an example of Letting Go and Letting God. You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com