Present Moment Portal

I love my kitchen window. There is always something interesting going on whenever I walk by. This causes me to stop, stand in front of it and gaze out in that moment. Maybe it’s a ‘Present Moment Portal’, and not just a window.

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To enjoy the present moment, you need to place yourself in the space to enjoy it. Today, I sat in my front porch swing to enjoy that early morning moment.

Do you ever worry about things that haven’t even happened yet?

I read an article the other day by a man who teaches about the present moment, and he caught himself multitasking. Bringing way too much into his moment.  He made a vow to go back to single tasking and enjoying each task.

Awareness is the first step to change.

Toward the end of the month, I tend to become worried about the house payment for the upcoming month. I think this is from going through foreclosure on a home years ago. There is still that lingering uncertainty.

Looking at the facts, there is nothing to worry about. Have I always made the house payment? Yes. Does it place me in a financial hardship? No. Am I grateful for my home and for God providing such a beautiful place to live? Yes.

“Trust me and refuse to worry,” were the first words in my devotional this morning.

“Keep your mind in the present moment. If you use your magnificent mind to worry, you cloak yourself in dark unbelief. However, when the hope of heaven fills your thoughts, the Light of My Presence envelops you.” Jesus Calling by Sarah Young.

That is God’s plan for today, which sounds a lot more refreshing than mine from yesterday. That plan, is a good plan.

Lose The Stuff

One of the most memorable lessons I’ve learned is, don’t let your happiness depend on something you may lose. When my ex-husbands company moved without him, we lost our home to foreclosure and the ship began to sink.

Money has always been important to him. Growing up without having much, caused him to be highly motivated to have more. There is a lot of time and money that goes into having more. I grew up without a lot of material things, but Mama gave all the love she had. She told me she loved me all the time and gave the best hugs. I was loved.

I missed a lot of moments back then. My son’s life was Polo outfits, private schools and video games. I didn’t see much of my daughter. She had a nanny her first year and I wasn’t sure what to do with her after that.

My son’s life involved my drinking and my daughter’s did not. I got sober before I found out I was pregnant. God took my desire to drink completely away and He was watching as I lost everything else. Just like my drinking, it was for my best.

God watched as I lost everything that we worked had so hard for, so I thought. He was there the day I walked out of my marriage too. God had allowed us to accumulate all that stuff, but when the means to pay for it was taken away, there went the stuff. This happened to a lot of people when the economic crisis set in.

I pray that you have let go of your stuff.

My ex still has most of the stuff, but it’s not being enjoyed. He has spent all these years trying to get back what was taken from him. God says He will restore all that, and He has in my life. You would have thought it would have been the material things, but I live a very simple life today and love it.

It’s the moments God restored. I get to be with my daughter everyday with very little stress. We live a beautiful life and everything we need. All we need is God and one another. He wants us to depend on Him for every little thing and today, I do. The only way to lose everything now is to stop following God and that, I’m not willing to lose.