I Tip My 40s to My Homies. — I have no idea what I’m doing

This is a new Blogger I started following recently.

The title of her Blog is what drew me in, “I have no idea what I’m doing.” That is how I feel most days.

This is a beautiful story of how she had to ‘rise up’ out of the trenches of her own life, and be that person she knew she could be. The man she loved chose to rise up to meet her and they now stand together.

For all my ‘happily ever after’ peeps. Beautiful. xx

Forty. What a weird thing it is to have a word symbolize so much in my mind. Previously, when I thought of being forty the following words came to mind: suburban, mom jeans, boring, mini-van, out of touch, old, conservative, confident, routine, accomplished. Those are all words that can terrify you depending on how you […]

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Break the Cycle

There is a reason and season for everything. Keeping our eyes and ears open will allow us to see, even if we don’t feel ready. When we least expect it God will reveal something that will make us pause and study our path. We are ready.

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There are normally signs along the way. It’s easy to miss the small details, but if we take notice, we can watch them accumulate. Choosing to ignore the signs prolongs the inevitable. There is less pain in letting go of something, or someone that is already long gone.

Listen to your heart, but take your brain with you.

The way we were raised has a lot to do with our beliefs, especially about ourselves. I have friends that are in miserable marriages because they were raised to fight for the marriage. My parents stayed married until all the kids were out of the house and then they got a divorce. I chose to break that cycle and let go of what was gone.

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Life is an ever changing cycle so what I learned as a child isn’t always what’s best for me today. I recall early in my letting go process going through a list of things my mother said and digging for truth. Would I get sick if I went outside with my hair wet? Was sex my duty as a wife? I was able to debunk most of the list.

I don’t have to utilize everything I was taught growing up. I’m grateful to have choices. Part of the Letting Go process is laying everything out on a table, picking and choosing what I want to keep to move forward in life. If it’s good and adds value I kept it and build upon that. My parents instilled a solid foundation to build a life that is beautiful.

A Happy Moment

We met in the kitchen, staring at one another with that wide-eyed look of, “What do we do?”

It had been eight years since I had heard that noise requiring attention. It was almost 4 am, and this had been going on for a little while. The high-pitched cry, squeal and whining noise coming from the next room, had woken us up, and it was time for action. Not sure what type, we were going to have to dive in and start marking things off the list until happiness resumed.

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This picture is my daughter, Bailey, and it describes her perfectly. She took this a couple of days ago, and when she showed it to me, my heart melted. I could see she wasn’t a little girl anymore and she was growing into a beautiful young lady. Wearing her Vintage, Polo golf hat and resting her arm on her treasured Taylor guitar.

She’s been wanting a puppy for months. We have been talking it through, and praying for the right time and the right dog to enter our lives. We knew that a neighbor’s Australian Cattle Dog, had given birth to a litter around Thanksgiving, so we went to look at them. Need I say more?

The sounds that woke us up in the middle of the night was her new puppy. We went through a series of activities trying to meet his basic needs. I finally held him close up against me and he fell asleep. All he wanted was to feel loved and secure. Just like us.

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As I walked by her bedroom door this morning, I peeped in looking for the pup. He was sound asleep with her in the bed. Coming into the den with coffee in hand, it occurred to me that she could handle this.

Proverbs 22:6, “Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it.” She’s old enough now to do so many things without my assistance. My hope is that she will pass me and do more! It’s a hard to admit, but at the same time, it’s a happy moment.

She’s Scary Beautiful

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I love my daughter Bailey. I am so proud of who she is, and who she’ll become. You see….I can boast about this beautiful girl because none of the credit goes to me. When I look at her, I see everything good thing, made by the hand of our Almighty God!

Bailey is musical and loves photography. The girl who people think should be in front of the camera, stands humbly behind it. She has recently become passionate about photographing concerts. At the young age, of almost 15, she steps out in faith and contacts press managers of her fave boy bands and artists. Depending on God to open the right doors to the concert He wants her to shoot. Last night, she got more than she imagined at the Tyler Ward concert in Austin, TX. She was there to shoot his show, but was blessed beyond measure.

Girls try to look beautiful. If they only knew to wash off the makeup, put some clothes on that cover private parts, and let the light shine from within. You can BE beautiful without even trying.  Bailey doesn’t know she’s beautiful. Take that and her walking around filled with the Holy Spirit…she’s scary beautiful. Guys her age just stare at her. They don’t have the time spent on earth to have achieved a successful relationship, so they don’t even approach. If they do approach, they find out rather quickly she’s very mature for her age, and they walk away. Guys age 18 to 25 stare at her too! They are trying to gauge if she’s 16 or 18, and sometimes approach. Bailey knows once they find out her age, they don’t walk, they run.

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The post above is one of her fave sayings. Another one she lives by is from Max Lucado. “A woman’s heart should be so hidden in God, that a man has to seek Him, to find her.” With a literal handful of really true friends, she goes about her day seeking God and His plan for her life. The stares have started to take a toll on her this year. Little Miss Scary Beautiful cannot fathom why people won’t approach her, or even be kind. Then God sends someone with wisdom, right when she needs it, to pour it on her.

Someone reached his arm around her last night at the concert and said, “You are so beautiful! You are just so beautiful! Now…you wanna selfie?” She stood there, mouth hanging open in utter disbelief! It was Tyler Ward saying this to her. The look on her face in those selfies are priceless. She will never forget that moment. God sent someone over to grab her and tell her what He knew all along.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Thank you God.