The Snooze Button

You can only ignore it for so long. That dream God puts in your heart. We put it off and tell ourselves, ‘One Day.’ We are good at ignoring what we want to do, versus what we need to do. This week in my world, I had to stop ignoring.

We go through seasons and I went through a long season of survival. I was in survival mode for years. It was one of the most difficult times of my life.

It came down to working jobs I didn’t enjoy, to make money to keep what I had. I couldn’t let go of what I had worked so hard for. It was a vicious cycle of work, eat and sometimes sleep. God has better in store if I would let go of what I had.

It was a gradual procession and not as painful as I believed it would be. To let go of the house, cars, in ground pool, artwork, chandeliers, all these things I thought I had to have. There was so much stuff to take care of, I didn’t have time to care for me, or my family.

You should know by now, I live a simple, yet beautiful life today. The old saying, ‘less is more’ holds true. I am free to do whatever I want, whenever God opens the door. Being willing to walk through every door, and see if it’s something that aligns with my dream.

Being willing to move when God says move. That is what clicked this week. I’m a thinker and have been known to analyze every situation. Pick it apart so to speak. That is wanting to know the outcome first. Stepping into the unknown is a scary feeling and fear will set in to stop you. Face your fear. Face it and get moving.

The great thing about dreams are they don’t go away.

We leave our dreams, they don’t leave us. They will patiently wait on the sidelines until will take time for them. It’s time to stop hitting the snooze button.

Lose The Stuff

One of the most memorable lessons I’ve learned is, don’t let your happiness depend on something you may lose. When my ex-husbands company moved without him, we lost our home to foreclosure and the ship began to sink.

Money has always been important to him. Growing up without having much, caused him to be highly motivated to have more. There is a lot of time and money that goes into having more. I grew up without a lot of material things, but Mama gave all the love she had. She told me she loved me all the time and gave the best hugs. I was loved.

I missed a lot of moments back then. My son’s life was Polo outfits, private schools and video games. I didn’t see much of my daughter. She had a nanny her first year and I wasn’t sure what to do with her after that.

My son’s life involved my drinking and my daughter’s did not. I got sober before I found out I was pregnant. God took my desire to drink completely away and He was watching as I lost everything else. Just like my drinking, it was for my best.

God watched as I lost everything that we worked had so hard for, so I thought. He was there the day I walked out of my marriage too. God had allowed us to accumulate all that stuff, but when the means to pay for it was taken away, there went the stuff. This happened to a lot of people when the economic crisis set in.

I pray that you have let go of your stuff.

My ex still has most of the stuff, but it’s not being enjoyed. He has spent all these years trying to get back what was taken from him. God says He will restore all that, and He has in my life. You would have thought it would have been the material things, but I live a very simple life today and love it.

It’s the moments God restored. I get to be with my daughter everyday with very little stress. We live a beautiful life and everything we need. All we need is God and one another. He wants us to depend on Him for every little thing and today, I do. The only way to lose everything now is to stop following God and that, I’m not willing to lose.