Tag: #lovemyself

Smells Like Love

My daughter left yesterday to spend the weekend with her Dad. This morning, sitting where we usually sit together, I had an odd thought. “I’m gonna miss hearing, “I love you.”

I had an appointment to get to, but when it was over I Googled the nearest location of Bath and Body Works. When my daughter gets home Monday, I want her to know I was thinking of her. A couple of weeks ago, she walked into my bedroom and said, “Wow! It smells so good in here!” It was a new Wallflower of one of my favorite scents, but I unplugged it and put it in her room. It is now empty.

I’m really big on smell. It’s important, and it seems to be a large part of who I am. From giving people a hug, to someone walking into my home, it brings me joy to hear, “Wow! You smell good!”, or “It smells so good in here!”

It’s a combination of things. Our lotion is made by a woman locally, and smells amazing. Every now and then we wash our clothes in Tyler Wash, and that’s like washing them in perfume. It takes time for this to happen, but it’s pure magic when a room envelops a fragrance, and it fits that room. That is what happened when I gave my daughter the wallflower. It was my favorite scent, but became hers.

You want to stand in her room and inhale deeply.

Standing in front of the display of Wallflowers, it took a while to find the right one. Scanning the display for the name of the fragrance, my gaze froze when it landed on this. A candle was sitting to the left of the display, and I picked it up to purchase without even smelling it first!

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Photo cred. B&BW.

Now, I can walk by the candle, see those words, and say it to myself. Smelling the candle burn, it sure smells like love.

The Greater Good

I sit here this morning looking out at a lake. It was not here a few months ago, but it’s coming back. When I first came here, the area was filled with Bluebonnets. There was no water, but the area knew it was supposed to be full.

blueheronIt’s mornings like this that remind me of Stork. We don’t realize what we miss until it’s no longer there. This massive Blue Heron gave me comfort the first year of my legal separation. Knowing I was on the path God had for me, even though I was headed toward a divorce. I miss seeing Stork.

I saw a post this morning that reminded me of a lesson I am continuously learning. I am learning to love myself enough to do what’s good for me. Walking away from a 25 year marriage was one of the hardest thing I ever did. Mustering the courage to walk away from what was not good for me.

I think every relationship starts off good. It’s new and exciting when someone walks into your life that brings more happiness. Make sure it continues to bring you joy. The first sign of sadness should be a red flag because the heart knows.  Just like this once dry land knows it’s a lake.

My daughter used to ask me why I looked sad. If I was with someone that loved me, my face should be smiling. If my heart hurts it will show on my face. The look of sadness means an empty heart, smile means happy and a laugh means overflowing.  Don’t wait for a person to see what’s on your face and question whats in your heart. Walk away.

 

blackandwhiteBarbara is a writer and loves being a Mom to her 15 year old daughter. It’s a dream come true for her to be a Let It Go Coach and help others enjoy their lives. She hosts Workshops, does one on one Coaching and is working on her first book.  You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com