Tips During Chemo

I am grateful to so many people right now.

People that God has given me, so I don’t walk this journey alone. There is a Blogger on this site I am extremely grateful for. I don’t even know her name, only her Blog name bookjunkie. She wrote this yesterday, and it was exactly what I needed to hear. She is ahead of me on this path, and blazing a trail for us all.

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Once I stepped outside, my morning looked like this. It’s a new day. Here’s what I can share, for anyone else walking this path is.

*Don’t let yourself get hungry.

Eat small things throughout the day, and keep your body fueled. My new fave is Parmesan Goldfish crackers. They taste divine! Fruit, veggies, crackers, and plenty of water will make your body sing. Don’t eat pizza after Chemo. I waited until I was starving and did that. Haven’t been that sick since in years.

*Make sure you are getting the best possible care.

It’s your body, so be picky. The first Chemo treatment I had, my port was newly installed. Being protective over it, I was very nervous about the treatment. The nurse picked up on that, and missed my port completely. The Chemo needle went straight through my chest. I left and went to another location for treatment, and had the most loving and gentle care.

*Get plenty of rest.

If you haven’t read yesterday’s Blog about that, here it is. My body is fighting cancer, and being an otherwise healthy body, it doesn’t know what to do with the Chemo. Give it plenty of water and rest my friend. This too shall pass. The day of, and the day after Chemo, don’t make any plans. Give yourself that time to let your body fight to heal.

Just remember, this is a temporary situation for a long term result. You’re stronger than you know. See you on the other side.

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Doing It Afraid

Lastnight was the first night since the port placement that I didn’t sleep sitting up. I was tired of that position, so I curled up in a ball on my left side, and woke up with no pain.

I was scared to lay that way. The left side is where the tumor, and port live for now. It felt so good to lay the way I would normally sleep. God had His arms around me through the night.

This entire journey, has been ‘doing it afraid.’

I was terrified what the mammogram would show. Then came the biopsy, where I laid on the table and wept. It hurt like hell. It wasn’t the procedure itself, I believe it was the doctor. If you have the right people in your path, this should not be painful. They are there to ease your pain darling, and care for you.

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So today was the day beauties. The day the bandage was to come off from the port placement. I was so scared to pull it off. Having no clue what it was going to look like underneath. Let me just say, I’ve always been a wuss when it comes to bandages and needles. Welp…That is fading fast. Every part of the journey makes us stronger and better.

The fear of the unknown is what it was. Not knowing for sure what it was going to look like once the bandage was off. It was nothing like I had imagined. It was merely stitches, in skin, and a slight lump where the port is resting. As I stood before the mirror, pulling at the adhesive, repeating, “God help me,”  it was nothing to fear at all. He had it all planned.

Tomorrow I start Chemo, but at this point, there is less fear. God has traveled this road before me, and He will be there tomorrow as well. Thank you for your love and prayers.

Chocolate and Chemo

I woke up this morning wanting to put the brakes on my life. Just for a few days. Everything happened so fast. The list of who I’ve seen and what has been done is huge. Tomorrow, I get my port placement inserted very early. Austin is growing on me.

I went to see my doctor today. He is delightful, and has a sparkling attitude. He was going over the results of the MRI, with this puzzled look on his face. He said when they did the mammogram and ultrasound, they saw three other small satellites floating around the one mass. After reviewing the MRI, which is significantly more detailed, there were none.

No satellites. Just the one mass alone.

He looked puzzled, but it was no surprise to me. I flat out told him, “God is healing me!”

He smiled, nodded his head, still looking at the MRI and said, “Yes. We need God.”

Then I went to learn all about Chemo.

I had my book ready to take notes, but didn’t need it. On her lap was this large binder filled with pages , which were all going home with me. I put my book away. She started flipping through all the pages, and at first it was mild. She was telling me what I could expect from the medicines.

It was all good until she started talking about some negative effects of the combined Chemo. My face was priceless I’m sure as I looked at her and said, “Rebuke.”

I’m just walking up to doors on this journey. Tapping to see if they open. When they do, I walk through and see what the person on the other side has in store. God has lined up the most wonderful people for me. My doctor laughs and says, “You’re gonna be just fine.”

The lady in the Chemo department is excited about me being there. I noticed about 3/4 of the way through her stack of pages, she just stopped and put them up. She said she didn’t see any need to go over the rest because I was gonna be just fine. As I was leaving, she told me, “We’re gonna have fun! I’m so glad you’re here. We need you.”

God has me right where I’m supposed to be. After we left Austin, I stopped and bought this.

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A bowl full of chocolate that I best enjoy now, because chocolate and Chemo don’t mix.