Flaws and All

I’ve been pondering the idea of posting a Blog everyday the month of December. I know Bloggers who post everyday and they have it all planned.

I don’t plan my posts. They form from a piece of inspiration I spotted within my day and grow from there. I ponder that little nugget until it has words swirling around it and then find a quiet moment to let them fall to the page.

December is a busy month. A lot of writers take the month off completely. There’s something I’ve learned from taking a break from something I love. When I leave, it ends.

There’s a struggle in the re-starting.

There’s no growth in the not doing.

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I asked a friend what she thought about me Blogging everyday this month and she reminded me how busy people are in December. That’s a valid point, but I don’t write for the the masses. This Blog has evolved into a haven of sorts. Readers know it’s going to be peaceful and calm.

Writing isn’t a task for me, or on my to-do list for the day.  It’s a gift and an honor to be used by God in this way. Flaws and all.

A Fresh Start

I went back to Soul Society Yoga’s Chillville.

It’s my favorite class, and is a nice way to do something my body will thank me for later.

I saw this sign hanging in Yoga class like a confirmation assuring me I was in the right space.

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Credit: Soul Society Yoga

I love Yoga, but now it’s beginning to love me.

The New Year is here, and it’s the year of kindness.

I’m trying to be kind to myself so kindness will spill over onto others. Going to Yoga at least once a week is a good start. After class, I spoke with the teacher. He began by going to one class a week for a year.

That’s good enough for me. He’s an instructor now.

This year, I also dove into my meditation practice.

My daughter referred me to an app called ‘Simple Habits.’ The first week of January I began doing a 30 day practice called ‘Fresh Start.’ It’s free to use, and has many free meditations. It’s wonderfulness.

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I took this screenshot yesterday.

The screenshot reveals how simple it is to create a habit. Just like Yoga, the meditation is becoming a part of my life. It feels like something’s missing without it. We can create simple habits.

Maybe you’re beating yourself up mid January on goals that aren’t being met. Be kind to yourself.

Developing personally takes time, so take the full year. Every minute of the day is a fresh start.

Giving Me Practice

I went shopping yesterday and left my phone at home. It was intentional, just to check myself and make sure it didn’t bother me, and it didn’t.

I spent years addicted to my phone.

The day I deactivated my Facebook accounts was the day they congratulated me for spending six years with them. They sent a notification, and I was mortified. Six years, and what did I have to show for it?

Thank you for all of your kind comments on my Blog posts recently. They absolutely terrify me.

It takes time for me to respond, because I still overthink the response. I don’t have the WordPress app on my phone, so I don’t receive immediate notification. I let notifications run my life for years.

The past couple of weeks, I’ve been sharing things with you that took a long time to admit. It may look like Blogging tips, but for me it was painful lessons.

It’s not even about me, it’s about the lessons, and being used by God to prevent someone else from going through the same heartache. It’s by God’s grace that I’m able to sit here and share. Palms sweaty and hands shaking along the keyboard.

I don’t realize all the activity on my Blog without the app. Two or three times a day, I open my laptop, logon to this site, and see that you have visited.

I read the Blogs in my Reader, and love on others. It’s natural to give love, and leave comments on what you write, but I stare at the screen in awe when that same love and kindness is returned.

Sometimes I don’t know what to say, so I just ‘like’ the comment, and come back later to respond. I don’t know how people do it that have 100’s of comments a day. I would be so overwhelmed.

I enjoy living a calm, quiet life, but to live that way, I turn off all notifications, and my phone is usually in another room of the house. I’m not quite ready to tell you exactly how bad it got with 6 social media accounts giving me a feeling of importance.

Wow. That slipped out.

I don’t run my Blog in the normal way, because if I did, it would begin to run me. Thank you for your love and kindness, and taking time to comment.

It’s becoming less terrifying with every response, and you are giving me practice.