Putting It Off

I finished going through my archives.

I stopped at 2019, but will glance through those as well. Reading each post from 2014-2018 was like reliving Breast Cancer, and seeing how much I loved Mr. Smith, all over again.

It was worth going through twice.

I no longer cringe when people read my archives. I know what’s there, and am happy with the woman who emerged. Going through my archives is something I’ve put off doing for a long time.

I’m done putting things off.

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It’s funny how they start off small.

Like, taking a shower. I can put something in front of that small task all day long, until I’m sitting here at night with no shower. Running the vacuum. Every time the sunlight hits the floor I see the dog hair, but continue on with my day.

I got my nose pierced. A small thing I’ve been putting off.

Doing the big things, but ignoring the small ones. It’s time to spend the next 30 days cultivating self trust. When a small thing needs to be done, I’ll just do it, and write it down once it’s complete. Instead of a ‘to-do list’, it will be a ‘done’ list.

No more putting it off.

Low Level Pain

I keep a piece of paper and pen on my desk to jot down ideas. I believe they are messages from the heart. They are fleeting and only heard once, so I have learned to write it down when I hear it. The meaning is always revealed later.

I just sat down to straighten my desk, and saw these three words, low level pain. With it being three words, it must be the title to a Blog, because most all of my Blogs have only three words in the title. God challenged me to do that a while ago and it has been an interesting challenge for this wordy woman. Now it has become the norm. When I hear three words, I know it’s a Blog title, but the Blog can take days to form.

Today is the day for this one because I’m typing.

Are you walking around with a low level pain?

You may not even realize you are in this type pain.

The best time to notice is when you wake up first thing in the morning. I always sit up and move to the edge of the bed and just sit a moment. Tune in to what my body is telling me. When I feel a low level pain, it’s typically behind my eyes, like a dull headache or mild pressure. I describe it to friends as God having His thumb on my forehead, trying to remind me of what He asked me to do and I didn’t obey.

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That pain will not go away until I submit and do it.

One instance is if I am holding onto a relationship that God shut the door on. When God is done with something, I have to be done too, or I will not be happy. If I’m still holding on, God will not move until I let it go for good.

The low level pain feels a lot like procrastination. You know how it feels to put something off until the next day. If we continue putting it off, it prolongs the opening of that really good door God is waiting to open.

Are you a person of reason?

Well, almost every time, it doesn’t make sense. What my heart, or spirit is telling me to do, will not make sense in that moment. It will seem a little crazy, or out of character, but I have found to just do it anyway. God wants me to move, so He can move.

My thoughts could never trump God’s, so I don’t even try. My very best thought would be a speck on this grand plan He has for my life.

Walking in obedience to Him, and following these heart promptings quickly, without question, doesn’t have to be painful. I gave up my best laid plans long ago and have learned to enjoy never knowing what the day will bring. One thing I do know is, when it’s God, it’s going to be good.

 

 

 

 

 

Be Here Now

The one phrase that will make my skin crawl is, “Deal with it”. I don’t enjoy hearing that from someone’s mouth and directed toward me.

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That usually means they have provided or pointed out something distasteful in my life that needs to be resolved. Good things add goodness to my life.  If it’s not good, then I have a choice whether or not to keep it. Life happens fast, and the key that I have found, is to ‘deal’ with everything it throws at me immediately.

Being a woman, this usually brings up an emotion or two that I need to get a handle on first. If something happens unexpectedly, I have to sit back and look at it for what it is. Acknowledging how it’s making me feel, and sit with that feeling. To feel the present moment.

One thing I have found is you have to reach out and touch it. Whatever it is that’s bringing up this flood of emotion, whether it be anger, loneliness, panic, frustration, desperation, overwhelm…whatever it is, just touch the root cause. Every cause has calmness on the other side.  Just feel it out.

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Something or someone is trying to get your attention! We need to pay attention to every moment. When I reach toward it, what’s waiting for me is exactly what I needed, whether I knew it or not. It’s not scary. We just talk through our sides and come to an agreement that works for both of us. Then comes my favorite part….LETTING GO! Once it’s discussed, I get to let it go, and have more room for what’s next.

This is present moment living for me. I feel it, reach toward it, talk it through and move on. This prevents worry, grudges, procrastination, disappointment and all the nastiness of life. If you don’t reach toward it, you will probably put it in a box up on a shelf to deal with later. This is not healthy. It never goes away like that, and it will sit and wait. This also kills growth and nothing good grows in darkness. Face whatever is coming after you, because somehow, it needs you right now, in this present moment.