God, Present Moment

Hungry for God

IMG_20161128_104228Stork showed up this morning. He was perched right here, on the railing of this pier. He felt me watching, turned his head and stared straight back!

The stare was an acknowledgement. “You are sitting still, watching, and I have your full attention. Good!” It was scary, but exciting at the same time! If you don’t know the significance of the Great Blue Heron in my life, you can read more here. Stork has always been my sign from God that I’m right where He wants me.

Opening my morning meditation it read, “You are on the path of my choosing.

I’m visiting the lake, so I don’t have the luxury of my daughters ‘thumpin’ stereo. Opening a new tab, I can listen to a song from our Feel the Music series. YouTube recommended the Acoustic version below. It’s more clear.

 

I wanna go back, and show you what God’s been doing in my life, but there’s no need to go back. A few weeks ago, my voice became a roar! Now, this Blog has been all about God, and what He has done in my life, but now He’s getting more specific. I made a new category entitled, “When she became the fire”, so I won’t forget.

God has been working on me with the details. Wanting me to write it down, but wait on His timing to share. I don’t remember things very well. It’s been that way for as long as I can remember. Hah! (Good pun Barb!!)  My Soul has been whispering, and I was listening, but then I’d forget. That still small voice was saying, “Write it down.”

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This journal is what I used to write everything down while sitting in the doctor’s offices. They were telling me ‘the plan’ for my Breast Cancer. This journal was new to me, just like the word, Cancer. It brought me comfort, and joy to hold it in my hands, even if I couldn’t bring myself to write. “The outside of this journal is what spoke to me, but the inside is just as beautiful!”

I’m filling pages in that journal to share, but need to wait on God’s timing. Right now, someone has been patiently waiting for me to finish writing this post, so we can go eat lunch. I’m hungry, so I need to stop here. Maybe that is how all of this began. I was just hungry.

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Praise Him Anyway

I have done a lot of things that make me look like an idiot. Probably one of my all time favorites was when I would praise and worship God on a pier.

I woke up this morning, snagged a cup of Joe, and stepped outside. I love to stand on my front porch, feel the cool breeze (for now), and just soak in the moment. The sun breaks through these two ginormous oak trees right in front of me. It’s like God’s way of saying, “Good Morning.” I walked inside, flipped on the stereo, and stepped back outside.

This moment brought back memories of McDade.

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This pier is where I stood and worshiped God. This picture was taken on a crisp, and frosty morning, but that didn’t stop me from going down there. I still remember the warmth of my feet, breaking through the frost, as I jumped up and down, and danced around. That pier was completely thawed by the time I was done, and so was my heart.

The wooden spool is where I sat my coffee, and laid my phone, which was playing the music to worship Him. I miss that pier. My heart was longing for that feeling this morning, but all I have now is a front porch. Plus, there is a road in front of my house!

I still live out in the country, but since we moved to this little farmhouse in Dale, I haven’t enjoyed that outside ‘praise and worship’ moment. This morning, I could feel, and hear the music coming through the screen door, as I stood on the porch. Instinctively, my feet started bouncing to the beat because guess what song was playing?

Yep. It was the one I shared yesterday in our Feel the Music series. I sat my coffee down, and raised my arms high in the air, and sang along with Tenth Avenue North, “I have this hope…”  The feeling that came over my body, was like a drug!

My heart began to swell, and it felt like mild electrical waves flushing through my veins. I had goosebumps from head to toe, and it’s just the most exhilarating feeling ever!

I heard a car coming, so I withdrew. It was the same feeling when I would hear a car coming down the driveway in McDade. I lived on 40 acres, so the only car that drove by was my landlord. He was probably thinking, “We really need to size her up for a little white jacket that ties in the back.” What would this person coming down the road think, if they saw me dancing around my porch? In my pajamas no less!

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This is a picture of my daughter taken in McDade. She is gazing out the window, on a rainy day, looking at the pier. That is how we treat God sometimes. We can feel in our heart what He wants us to do, but let’s just stand here a minute and think about it.

The Bible is full of stories where God asked followers to do things that made them look like idiots. My favorite is Noah. I just love his heart! Let’s build an ark, and wait for the rain. The people in this town already shake their heads at me. It wouldn’t surprise them at all to see me building an Ark in my front yard. I say, “Let them think”.

They know I’m a writer that lives with my daughter. I wear pajamas way too late in the day. Sometimes the entire day. I had Breast Cancer and walked around bald-headed last year, but….”She’s always happy.” They know what they see, but you can’t see God.

You have to feel Him.

Is God prompting you to do something that will make you look like an idiot? That’s a good sign. Do it! The irony of all this is…My landlord is a custom cabinet maker. He works with wood, so all the wood suppliers know where I live. I have a large cattle gate on the side yard, so I look forward to the day the wood supplier pulls up, and I can say, “Back it in boys!”

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Feel the Music

Feel the Music

I am still lovin my house thumpin with dat bass thoooooo. If you are lost here, you can read our last Feel the Music, and catch up. Basically, my daughter figured out how to hook up the sub woofer to her stereo before she left to go visit her Dad.

I now know how to get her out of bed without even walking into her room!

It’s amazing how it feels when something is completely connected. We enjoyed the stereo pre-subwoofer, but now it’s like, Holy Cow! I can feel the vibration of the music. The whole house can, the cows, and probably the one neighbor!

It’s the same way when we are completely connected to God. I am learning to be still again, and just feel His presence. Just like in that Chemo chair. He is the vibration of life and love. This song has really good bass, so if you can, turn it up and feel it.

“I have this hope, in the depth of my soul. In the flood or the fire, you’re with me, and you won’t let go.”