Walk Like Wind

What did you want to be as a child? It may not apply today, but it’s still in you. I always wanted to be a model.

At age 13, I went through an awkward stage of braces and glasses. Mama took me to a modeling agency and they said, “Come back when you lose the braces and glasses.” It sounded mean, but they were just being honest.

I grew out of the braces and glasses and went back to that modeling agency at age 17. They wanted me to do runway because of my height. I was 5′ 9″, but it was embarrassing to walk down a runway in front of a group of strangers. I didn’t like being stared at and people still stare.

I left the modeling world at 22.

In high school, I was constantly ridiculed about my height. I watched a movie recently about a ‘tall girl’ and could feel every mean thing said to her. “How’s the weather up there!” I heard those same things 40 years ago, but today it’s a movie.

Yesterday, I was walking through a store and this little boy said, “Wow! She’s tall!” I probably looked like a giant to him, but I was made this way.

My daughter and I still laugh about this one thing a lady said a couple of years ago. We were walking into a nail salon and I was wearing a new pair of high heels. When we got into the salon, a lady said, “You walk like wind!”

The modeling world taught me how to walk in high heels. You walk tall, shoulders back and head held high. It stuck with me and I find myself walking that way still. Maybe that’s why this picture resonates with me so much.

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God made us in His image.

Walk like wind.

Be a Hero

I’m not a good follower.

I was raised to be a leader and leader’s don’t follow very well. We’re a disappearing breed.

I received a sweet comment on a post from a follower. She said, “So grateful to be following you. Keep reminding us that simplicity is grace. #Unencumbered.” I admire her so much! I found her through a picture of a beat up Bible.

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Her Ragged Bible

She doesn’t post very often, but when she does I drink it up. She explains by saying, “Committing to writing has always been an adventurous discipline for me. Forgive me for not posting as quickly as my experiences occur. I am ever so grateful for the way Life is treating me and faithfully attuned to how God stands in the gaps of my unknowing.”

Well said my darling! If I were to write about everything God is doing in my life, I’d be writing every minute of the day. After seeing her picture, I looked around for my Bible. It has a cover on it for protection, so I knew it wouldn’t looked like hers, but the cover has some scars.

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My Bible

The scars resemble the two scars I have on my left breast from my Breast Cancer Journey. Mine are not that long, but they’re there. Heck, I was there, but I was covered.

My first thought was to take the cover off and it would soon begin to look like hers, but the cover is there for protection from the elements. You used to be able to leave her a comment, but her most recent post has comments disabled. Protection from the elements.

My darling Miss A, I hope you continue to post because you’re one of my few true heroes!

God’s got you covered. And so do I.

It’s On Them

I receive strange looks at the pizza place.

People don’t know how to respond when they see me standing behind the counter. I’ve been asked by customer’s, “Why are you here?”

The only answer that fits is, “It’s all God.”

When we pray to be used by Him, be willing to just do it. I’ve questioned why I’m there many times, but now I’m starting to see why.

To interact with actual people.

Working from home has it’s positives and negatives. I love the time freedom it offers, but I interact with people through email.

Over time, I lost my actual people skills.

Being a writer, I can respond to emails all day long, but when was the last time I gave someone a hug, or laughed so loudly it echoed in the room? I was comfortable sitting at my desk, which is a big red flag for God.

It seems when I’m comfortable in life, I’m not doing His will because that is usually scary!

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I posted this on my Letitgocoach FB page.

For my stat loving peeps, it’s received almost 800 reactions, but what’s interesting is the shares. It’s been shared over 600 times.

The struggle with self worth is real.

Lastnight, a man made a sad attempt at conversation while waiting on his food.

He said, “I guess they’ll hire anybody here.”

I raised my eyes to him and could feel them light up with God’s love as I gave him a smile. He began stuttering trying to back his way out.

Know your worth my darling.

If they can’t see it, it’s on them.