God, Mr. Smith

Excuse Me While I Rest

I woke up late. Actually, I woke up at 6:00 am, like normal, but I fell back to sleep. I haven’t been taking care of myself. Thanks to last years Chemo treatment for Breast Cancer, I now listen to my body, and how it feels. Once is enough on that one!

Stumbling into the kitchen, all I wanted was my coffee. Which, by the way, I have been drinking too much of recently. (My friends just fell over) If you’ve been with me the past few weeks, you have probably thought, “Did she really just say that out-loud?” Oh!!! But Wait!!! There’s more!!!! If I slow down.

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I walked into the kitchen, and noticed the coffee pot sitting there empty. I was so tired lastnight while preparing it, I forgot to push the button that allows it to automatically brew. It was ready, but it couldn’t fulfill it’s purpose because I missed the most important step! (Cussing) God was showing me, and it was early! Crap!

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A friend sent me this Meme days ago. My year of Breast Cancer taught me so much, I’m gonna write a book! God was right there, refining me through the fire! He has big plans, and for once I was still enough to hear Him! I love Connie Moore.

I finished Radiation earlier this year, and rested for a couple of months. It felt like it was time to start sharing, but I’ve always been overzealous. On April 17th, I wrote, Hey Satan! Dat You? God said, “Write that down Barb. That’s the day you got your fire back!” Not only have I walked through the fire, but I have become the flame!

The silhouette of a warrior woman with storm clouds in the background.

I’ve been waiting a long time to use this Meme. God gave me someone two years ago that shows me how to wait. He’s patient, and his love never fails, and he’s still here today. Thank you Mr. Smith for being my God-given rock!!!

Do you know the first time God told me, “Write That Down?” March 17th. I’m a slow learner, but by looking at the what God had done so far, I knew this.

I have people in my life to love me, and protect me from myself. (My daughter, Connie M., and Mr. Smith) I knew Satan would be pissed, and come after me. But here is the most important thing I knew! I got this the first time!!!!

I told Mr. Smith I wouldn’t write today, but here I am! He is laying it on me, as I finish this up! He has always told me, “But Barb… You don’t listen.” He just referred to me as a Jackass, for being so stubborn!!! I need people like that, and I love Mr. Smith.

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I really want to be that bright, green, check mark. The rest will be in the book.

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Let’s Get Real

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Today, I changed the tagline on this Blogsite. God spoke to me like He often does while I’m driving. It now reads, “Helping Readers ‘grow a pair’, one Blog at a time.”

I hear, “That is not something a Godly woman should say”, then you may not be ready to follow me. If you can’t follow my Blog which is FREE, then I don’t expect you to buy my book either. This is where my daughter screams, “What a savage!!!

God told me three years ago, “You’re gonna write a book.” I just laughed, and said, “Right?” God starts at the beginning. Psalm 51:10 says, “Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right and steadfast spirit within me.” This Blog has been my “cleansing” of the heart. Wow! I hope God doesn’t leave me now! 

“Let your character [your moral essence, your inner nature] be free from the love of money [shun greed—be financially ethical], being content with what you have; for He has said, “I will never [under any circumstances] desert you [nor give you up nor leave you without support, nor will I in any degree leave you helpless], nor will I forsake or let you down or relax My hold on you [assuredly not]!” (Hebrews 13:5)

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How many times have I told my daughter, “My eyes feel like they’re gonna fall out of my head!” God gave me this gift, and my fingers have been bleeding since 2014!

But to be steadfast. Let’s look that up. The Merriam Webster definition says:

Steadfast-1. a Firmly fixed in place. IMMOVABLE. b not subject to change. 

Let’s compare that to what my God says. Corinthians 15:58 says, “Therefore, my beloved brothers and sisters, be steadfast, immovable, always excelling in the work of the Lord [always doing your best and doing more than is needed], being continually aware that your labor [even to the point of exhaustion] in the Lord is not futile nor wasted [it is never without purpose]” I’ve been right here, but wait! It’s gets better!!!!

Hebrew 13:8 says, “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.” God ain’t changing, so between the two of us, guess who needed to change?!

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My ex husband would say, “It’s always all about you Barb!” Thanks Bill!

That pissed me off, but that was over 300 Blogs ago. Two weeks ago, I reached that same level of frustration. It felt just like the day I had the balls to say, “I’m leaving!” (Book)

Finally!! Amen!!!

Psalm 139:14 says, “I will give thanks and praise to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well.

Here is the final part of our definition of Steadfast.

Firm in belief, determination, or adherence :  loyal her followers have remained steadfast. (You) And they all said, “Today, she changed the tagline on her Blog….”

Feel the Music, God, When she became the fire

Hey God! Dat You?!?

We’ve been talking about Satan this week, and we are NOT done, but today is God’s day. Isn’t that what we are taught to believe? Sunday is God’s day. Right?

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God is moving so fast in my life, I feel behind! Isn’t that where we’re supposed to be? Behind Him? He has many plans, but He waited until I was ready before He revealed them. How do I know they are His plans? Because they are my wildest dreams! (Another Blog)

We serve a God that wants to grant us our dreams, and He is a wild God! “Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.” (Ephesians 3:20 amp)

I have so many things I want to share with you right now, it’s overwhelming! It’s the good kind of overwhelm tho. My heart is racing, and I can’t type fast enough! God has always taken excellent care of me, and that is how this Blog started. To show you!

But now, I’m gonna ‘tell’ you some things.

Will you ‘like’ all of it? Probably not. I am not bashing Christians. I am one! You’ve been sitting in a pew, being spoon fed long enough! (They just closed the screen)

Is God quiet in your life? I have said that many times, “God? You are so quiet!” Nope. I was the one being quiet. He gave me a really big mouth, and the gift of writing. Wow! You go God! I’m finally ready for Him to use it. Heck! He gave me a year of rest!

To the naked eye, it looked like I had Breast Cancer, but He used Cancer to give me rest without an option. You know why? Because God can’t use a worn out warrior!

This song just came on the radio, and you need to take a listen. I stopped writing, and started jumping up and down singing along at the top of my lungs! My arms were swinging through the air, similar of a boxer. I’ll haveta ask my daughter to take a video, because it surprised me how much I looked like a fighter in that moment! God gave me a year off, so He would have His mighty warrior back! Right Olivia?

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Do you know why people get offended? Oh! I know…I know! (This is where my hand shoots up it the air, hoping God will pick me to give the answer, like we did in school) I have studied, and learned this lesson because I used to be offended so easily. “Get over yourself Barb!” Oh, you mean it’s not about me? Thank you God!

What I write about is the lesson learned. Satan’s greatest weapon among BELIEVERS is offense. Did you get that? Lemme say it this way. “The truth hurts!” God sends people to teach us, so, to all those people still reading my Blog hoping to see if your name is mentioned? Thanks for the lesson!

BOOM! Did you hear that?!? That was some offended followers leaving, and the door slamming shut behind them! I bet they stalk my Facebook page too, just to see how I’m doing without them in my life. (Me- Waving bye. That’s another Blog)

I bought a book recently from a fellow Blogger. I haven’t read it yet, but I will. Hell, I couldn’t get past the first page! He said, “Raluca Adelina Hanu, this is not for you.”

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God must have really big plans for Cristian Mihai because that’s the poor guys name!

Can you imagine, if he’s waiting for someone at a coffee shop? He is just there, minding his own bizness. This person walks in, sees him, and yells, “HEY CRISTIAN!!!!” Gasp! I imagine everyone sitting there would stop and look in horror!

Now Cristian, thank you for letting me use your name today. If we ever meet in person, I have a huge hug with your name on it. I know….I know….I try not to write names, but it was all God. Oh….That sounded like I was blaming God. Woops! (That’s another Blog)

blog1A friend sent me the above Meme yesterday. That is the kinda people I want in my life. ‘Spiritual Badasses.’ This friend is considered in today’s society a “Christian Lady.” I refer to her as ‘Potty Mouth”, and “Queen B”, (for Badass) because she cusses more than I do, and she ain’t scared of shit! She stared death straight in the face and said, “Get under my feet Satan, cuz God ain’t done with me yet!!!”

She is older than me, (forgive me for saying that), but with her extra years, she is filled with wisdom. I don’t ask for her ‘opinion’. I ask her to lay some ‘wisdom’ on me! Thank you God for Connie Moore! Oooops! I used her name! Well, one of her favorite sayings is, “Just do it, and ask forgiveness later”, but I won’t need to do that with her.

My God is yelling my name from the mountain tops! “HEY CHRISTIAN! I have some plans that are gonna blow your mind, but I need you to sit with me everyday!!!!”For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the Lord, ‘plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster to give you a future and a hope.” (Jeremiah 29:11)

If Sunday is the only day you sit with God, that is between you and Him. My God wants to use me everyday, and that is scary. Have you been around me before?

I must be preachin’ good, because I just saw my very first snake in the yard. He was right in my path, and I almost stepped right on him!!! Isn’t Satan a snake in the Bible? If your life is quiet, it’s because Satan ain’t worried. Yea, I wrote it in bold because I haven’t been a threat to him in a long time, but guess what Satan? Be worried.

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Feel the Music

Feel the Music

I know I have been sharing a lot of Christian music recently, but that is what I have been listening to. Allow me to show you how God is trending in my life.

Music was not a part of my life for a season. Four years ago, I had this phone I absolutely loved, and it had free music on it. You may recall, it’s the phone I used to play my praise and worship music on the pier in Praise Him Anyway

My phone carrier stopped offering the free music feature. I just never took time to reload something else on my phone. Hey Satan! Dat You? When my daughter received this stereo for Christmas, music was back in our home. God wants us to hear, and feel the music.

Psalm 95:1 says, “Come, let us sing for joy to the LORD; let us shout aloud to the Rock of our salvation.”

Well…This week, I have been singing so much, and so loudly, my throat is sore.

It all started when my daughter hooked up that sub-woofer. It was more than just hearing it like before. The bass made my chair vibrate as I was writing!

This is song number three this week, but every time it comes on the radio, I jump up and start singing along with it. I’ve danced so much, my dog tries to dance along with me. If my 12-year-old dog gets excited, my hope is God does too. I’m Coming Out!

Through this song, God is saying, “If you could only let your guard down. You could learn to trust me somehow. I swear, that I won’t let you go.” God Uses Scraps.

I do trust Him. He used my Cancer Journey to show me I could trust Him with my life. Literally! If you look at my posts from this week, you can see my guard coming down. He gave me the name Letitgocoach, and I want to live up to that name. He hasn’t let me go yet, so why should He start now? I’m finally to the point of not letting Him go either.

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Feel the Music

My daughter received a stereo for Christmas from her Dad. This monster, is a dream come true for most. She hooked it up herself, but there was one piece she missed.

The sub-woofer.

My daughter is all about the bass. She will hear a song, and say, “Dat bass thoooo!!!” She got the cord she needed from her Dad, and hooked it up right before she left on Friday.

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You will note this sound system is against an outside wall. I walked into the kitchen after she left, and that entire wall, all the way past the kitchen was vibrating! Dat bass thoooo!

The house was literally thumpin! (My dog is getting used to it.)

To feel the music. This song just came on, and it has a lot of bass, so here ya go! The Mac says it best. “I feel it in my heart, I feel it in my soul. That’s how I know.” This is one of our favorite videos too. We would so do this. Tell me what you know!

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Keep Planting Seeds

I have been pondering ‘discouragement’. There are a lot of people out there who are becoming discouraged in life. Mainly, I am seeing writer’s allow it to imprison their gift.

Writing is a gift. For me, it’s a way God can work through me to say something to you. I don’t spend hours developing a Blog, and I don’t do any research, unless it’s to look up a word for the correct usage. It’s just a matter of sitting down in front of this screen, and letting the words flow from my heart, through my fingers, onto this keyboard.

It’s Springtime, and this always makes me want to plant a garden. This house came with a fenced in area for that purpose. I gaze out my kitchen window, and imagine seeing raised beds full of veggies. My father was a gardener, and I’ve had gardens in the past.

Today, I have no desire to tend to it. It a lot of work, and combine that with the Texas heat, and it’s a big, ‘no thank you.’ I’d rather plant seeds of encouragement. As writer’s, we plant a seed every time we click the ‘Publish’ button. The seeds are our words.

Who will harvest our crop? That, we don’t know, but I will keep planting until God tells me different. Just by writing when we feel the urge, and casting it out on the Internet, God has the opportunity to use it. Use the gift God gave you. Keep planting seeds.

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Yesterday and Today

Yesterday had some fabulous moments, like my daughter getting her septum pierced, which I will eventually write about in more detail. I felt a little off most of the day, and I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. Once we returned home, I sat on my bed, and read.

I picked up my Kindle to read a Daily Meditation that I had not read in a while. It’s by Melody Beattie, entitled, “Journey to the Heart.” Daily Meditations on the Path to Freeing Your Soul. My bookmark revealed it had been several weeks since I had read it. So much for ‘Daily!’

It is a captivating read, and very soothing to the soul. Once I caught up, and saw the page was on the actual day, (yesterday) it spoke volumes to me. She was talking about timing.

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I am learning with writing, you cannot, “Make it happen.” I write for the pure love of it, in hopes of encouraging others along their path. It’s not something I have to think about, it’s a part of me. Yesterday, Melody’s words made me ponder the ‘timing.’

“Watch the surfer as he works his way out to sea. See him watching the waves, waiting for the right movement, the right timing, the right swell. Sometimes the wave comes quickly. Sometimes he has to tread water patiently for a long time, waiting and watching before he can ride the wave.”

She goes onto say, “Ultimately action will not get the job done any soon. It will simply waste your energy and send you back to sea, waiting for the right wave. Focus on your goal, muster all your forces, and head out to sea. Then wait patiently for the right time, for the right energy, for the right wave.”

So we consistently lay our hand to it, and wait on God’s timing. The right wave will come.

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Set Me Free

I want to show you my hair.

As you may have read in Repeat if Desired, we were trying to bleach it to white. Then my daughter was going to put lavender on it, but it has evolved into something on it’s own.

My hair grows fast, which I learned Thanks to Chemo. By the time we got it to the lightness we wanted, it had grown out of the style we were shooting for. So, we shaved the sides, and back.

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This entire process has set me free from the stigma placed on hair. We have had so much fun with it! I told her today, “When you homeschool, and my hair becomes the project?”

God works like that. We started out with a style and color in mind, but over time it became something we could not have done if we tried. My daughter just keeps experimenting with it. There is nothing she can hurt. It’s only hair, and during Chemo, I was skinned bald for months!

I received my first Patreon this morning!!!

My daughter was in the shower when I received the email notification. You better believe I starting squealing with delight, ran into the bathroom, jumped up and down, and told her over the noise of the shower, “I.GOT.MY.FIRST.PATREON!!!!!” I believe I put some people off because I get excited, and refuse to contain it. I used to play it cool, but no more. If you get me excited, you best run for cover! You will know without a doubt that I am enjoying the moment!

Isn’t that what God wants us to do? Be excited for what He’s doing in our lives!?!

When I received the email notification from Patreon, it was like God was saying, “See? Thanks for listening, and obeying Barb!” God worked through her to encourage me to keep on writing! I was looking at the email thinking, “She believes in me. She wants to be a part of this book.”

Are you curious as to what picture Publicize used to post with this mornings Blog?

It didn’t pick up any of the cute Meme’s I used in the Blog. No, it used the last thing I posted which was the ginormous Patreon Logo!!! I left it alone, and just rolled with it. What we have in mind, and what God has in mind are two totally different things. Even when things don’t look exactly the way we intended, He will use it for His glory. It just sets me free!

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Miracle Grow

I was watching my little dog this morning. He was sitting, but anxiously awaiting my daughter’s door to open. That is all he wanted. To see my daughter walk into view.

How simple is that?

We both give him attention, but I am the Mama. I make sure the food and water bowls are full, give him a bath, and get drugs from the vet to keep his fleas at bay. She gives him attention, and tells him how cute he is all the time. He gets more excited about her.

We nurture what we give our time to. I have a tendency to want to hurry things along. Help God out a little bit. I’ve had to come to grips with the numbers I see from this Blog. How many Bloggers have quit thanks to the numbers? If I compared the numbers, to the time spent, I wouldn’t be here, but since when is this Blog about me? I am just the writer.

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My boyfriend filled our planter boxes with flowers this week. It makes us a little nervous because we have a knack for giving them too much attention, and they die. I believe the same is true for a Blog, or any page where you focus on the numbers.

Too much attention can kill it. I unfollowed a Blogger this morning because he posted 4 Blogs yesterday. I love to read, but I don’t want to just hear the writer talk. Feed me.

Looking at the flowers planted, my boyfriend said, “I hope they spread and get fuller.. that will be the perfect scenario.. but I am just hoping to keep them alive long enough for that to happen right now..” He added, “I bought Miracle Grow!”

We can look at our writing in the same way. The seeds are planted, and the flowers are starting to bloom. We hope that our words will spread, and become fuller, but right now, we are just hoping to keep the writer in us alive long enough for that to happen. If we need an extra boost, God is the miracle in Miracle Grow.

In the meantime, just keep writing with as much Integrity, and Love as possible.

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Barbara is a Writer, a Mom to her 17-year-old daughter, a recent Breast Cancer survivor, and she loves God. When she started this Blog in 2014 Letitgocoach was the name that stuck. She enjoys helping people Let Go of what is holding them back from having a beautiful life. Her life is beautiful, and an example of Letting Go and Letting God. You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com

 

Present Moment, Quality of life

Feel the Love

My good coffee came in the mail yesterday, so all is good. The coffee maker had it ready, and waiting for me this morning. My heart is as full as this cup, so thank you for filling my cup. You see, I have been reading Blogs from this WordPress community, and it’s a magical place. I cannot mention them all in one sitting, but here are a few I follow.

Of the top of my head, there is Rebecca at simplemesimplelife. The name of her Blog is what drew me in because I am all about simple. We are around the same age, and she is married with a couple of kids. Maybe they are grown kids, I am not sure, but she is on a journey to share what she has learned. When you’re our age, there is a lot to share.

Part of her Bio says, “I believe in the Lord almighty and credit God with all good things that have been given to me, this includes my family. I aim to enrich and touch others’ lives as they have touched mine.” I admire her because she is still married in this day and age.

Then there is Liz. Her Blog is entitled My Wellbeing and Learning Journey. I have been reading her Blog for months, and just discovered she is deaf. I would have never known by what she writes. I believe she used to write about it, but she came to realize her deafness didn’t define her. She is feeling her way though life, and I love reading about her journey.

Part of her Bio says, “At times, some of what I may write will be therapeutic for me, but they may be distressing for you, so these posts will have a ‘Content Warning,’ at the front of the post. But I hope that these posts I share, if they relate to you, that they help you in some way.” Writing is therapeutic, but what we share may surprise our readers.

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So, here is my “Content Warning”. I am skipping over some Bloggers I love, to highlight one that needs our love. If talking about sex offends you, scroll past the naked souls laying in each others arms. If I comment on, or like your Blog, you know you are loved.

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She is known as Webmaster, and her Blog is entitled Sexinthe6ixBlog. I take it there are a lot of Bloggers out there who write about their sexual encounters. Writing is therapeutic, but what happened to diaries with the lock and key on them, we used to hide under our mattresses? This lady makes my heart bleed. She is learning through sex. All I know is, I found myself by looking in the mirror, and not while having sex. That came later in life.

Even though her site is quite graphic, I see the beautiful soul that she is. She has a heart as big as Texas, and it gets broken. You can learn a lot about yourself through sex, but I need to be a whole being on my own. Otherwise, I am just giving my body to another person that is looking for the same thing. For me to make them feel whole during that brief encounter.

Do you know why we feel so complete during sex? Because God made it that way.

Unfortunately, in today’s world, people are looking for the right partner to feel complete. There is a void inside that needs to be filled. Sex is being used as a form of high, but oh honey, when it’s over, how about that low though. Mark 10:8 says, “And the two will become one flesh.’ So they are no longer two, but one flesh.” It’s a remarkable feeling!

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My daughter and I are extremely open about sex. She probably knows more about it than I do, thanks to the Internet. She will be 18 years old this year, and she’s a virgin.

Yes, I raised her knowing the importance of giving your body to another, but she makes her own decisions. The body is our temple, and it houses everything we hold inside. It’s all we have, so shouldn’t we be selective in who gets it? I tell my daughter, “Herpes doesn’t wash off in the shower,” and “Two plus two equals Gonorrhea.”

There are so many people I want to learn from, share with, and love on. Webmaster? I hope you can feel the love today, as you stand at your lovers funeral.

meBarbara is a Writer, a Mom to her 17-year-old daughter, a recent Breast Cancer survivor, and she loves God. When she started this Blog in 2014 Letitgocoach was the name that stuck. She enjoys helping people Let Go of what is holding them back from having a beautiful life. Her life is beautiful, and an example of Letting Go and Letting God. You may connect with her via email. Letitgocoach@gmail.com